tampered | Ran & Kamui! Log! FINISHED!

Unfortunately for Kamui, Ranmaru wasn't going to give up on him. There was the fact that he had just gone through something so severely traumatising, and there was also the fact that Ranmaru had experienced death here and understood how painful it was, that he couldn't ignore the other's angst. In his opinion however, Kamui put a little too much suffering onto himself and didn't try to fix it. So Ranmaru decided he might try himself.. he wasn't counting on success, but he was counting on something at least. He just hoped it wasn't dislike.

Stopping by from cafe Juliet and picking up the most delicious parfait he could order, he rushed home and then decoraed the contents of the take-away appropriately, and set them on a tray, along with some tea for later and carried it to Kamui's room. Knocking on the door twice, he then pushed it open and peeked his head in.

"Kamui-kun?" he called, elbowing the door open, and walking in wih a wry smile. "Hiding under the blankets will not do any good, you know.." he walked in, setting the tray on the low table and kneeling beside him on the futon.

"Ranmaru can hear your breathing." he added, with a tease to his voice. "Look what I got you!"

DAMN IT. Okay, so apparently Ranmaru hadn't fallen for his "lets pretend I'm asleep" plan. Such was his luck. Still didn't mean he was going to make this easy on the other. Surely Ran would give up on Kamui eventually and leave him be.

He couldn't just lay there, though, so he peeked out from the covers slightly to look at the treat. It... did look pretty good, but... "Th-thanks. Leave it. I'll eat it later." And with that, he burrowed again and rolled over, facing away from the other.

"That can't be done, Kamui-kun!" Ranmaru chided gently. He grinned a little, remaning kneeling where he was and observing Kamui carefully. His actions were so childsh, it was almost amusing and Ranmaru had younger brothers enough to know how to deal with such a thing.

"The parfait has icecream in it. Therefore it must be eaten immediately, or it shall melt!" he warned. "Then it wont taste as good, Kamui-kun!"

There were other reasons to his insistence, but for now.. this would do.

So that wasn't going to work either, it seemed. Kamui was already running out of conversation-avoidance ideads. As was his luck. Begrudgedly, he sat up a little, still partially covered, and took a spoonful of the treat. "It's... good..." he whispered, not wanting to admit it. He especially didn't want to admit that this... was the first real thing he'd eaten in a day or so, which accounted for him now practically shoveling the food into his mouth.

Hee hee hee. I don't have an icon of Subaru giggling at you two so this'll have to do.

Ranmaru noticed the way Kamui was eating with a concerned look, noticing that while the boy hadn't quite come out while he was usually at home, after all that had occured.. he never realied Kamui might have been starving himself in his depression. It was strange how pitiful the poor boy was, and he didn't want to do that to him. Pity was reserved for the dead.

"Eat slowly now, don't give yourself a headache." he warned, pouring himself some tea in a cup, and kneeling there, turning the chawan thrice before raising it to his lips and taking a sip after sweetening the tea in his mouth with a sugar sweet.

"You haven't eaten anything else, right? Be sure to come for dinner too.. what do you like eating, Kamui-kun? Ranmaru will try and make it!"

No laughing allowed! Okay, maybe. :D Poor Kamui has to suffer Ranmaru's happy. :D

Subaru could hardly take it when they first met, I remember!

But Kamui's prone to being a violent brat, whereas Subaru isn't. I wish Ran the best of luck. ♥

P.S. - Miss yoooou.

Don't forget, Ran's not too far from being violent himself. ♥ He's dealt with brat siblings. :D

P.S - Miss you toooooo.

Subaru better not come home and find the place wrecked.

...That would make him emo.

... that icon makes me want to pick up Utena or Juri.

Hahah, I'd pick up Anthy or Miki, but when Pandy opens I'm gonna have my hands full of characters.

It's gonna be a post-X-mas opening so people can be around. Don't want a bad start. ♥ mwahahahaha.

I have THREE apps I still need to write!

Well, two I guess. I think I missed my chance for AI.

Ranmaru's words had the exact opposite reaction to what they were trying for; Kamui not just slowing, but stopping entirely. "I... don't want anymore," he grumped, curling back into his bed as Ranmaru made his tea. It was... embarrassing to have attention called to him wolfing his food down, and damn it... why the hell was it so hard to get rid of this guy?

Looked like Seishirou was going to have a bitch of a time in his mission. Not that Kamui was helping things, having constantly refused to give him useful information.

"And I like to eat the hearts and souls of young children, obviously." He so wasn't cooperating.

"Is that so? Perhaps we can find them in the Underworld." Ranmaru didn't falter at all. What did a soldier, who had seen limbs flying off a warrior's body in clean strokes of a sword or a fighter cleanly committing seppuku have to be disturbed by such a request? He continued to have his tea and didn't spare Kamui a next glance.

"Anything else..?" he turned and pet Kamui's shoulder. "Kamui-kun, please finish it. I brought it with you in mind." his tone was, however, calm, instead of cajoling. Spoiling only went to an extent, but rudeness was something he didn't tolerate.

"Subaru-san would be most unhappy with you if I told him you were skipping out on meals. It'll be our secret." he added, with an air of mischief.

"Ew," was Kamui's only response to Ranmaru so readily accepting his smartassed request. Didn't he hear the sarcasm in it? Or was he purposely ignoring it just to piss him off?

"I don't need to eat, anyway," he finally said, wondering to himself if that was really true, especially considering he was somehow hungry. He was dead, sure, but... his bodily functions seemed to be the same as anyone living; only difference was that his heart didn't beat. Kamui still wasn't sure how that was possible, when the rest of the body so relied on that certain contract and release of muscle. Of course, this place didn't seem to follow logic or science anyway, so...

And then his train of thought was suddenly severed when the other TOUCHED him, his body flinching instictively. What the hell had made Ranmaru think he could do THAT?! "Will you leave me alone if I finish what you brought me?"

"That would be the idea, wouldn't it?" Ranmaru continued for him. "If you finish everything there is to eat, then I do not need to be here to ensure that you do." he moved back his hand, going back to drinking his tea. Ranmaru enjoyed this thing the people in this city called sarcasm, it was just as easily brought down by one not adept to using it. He sighed and thought of just why Kamui was so vehemently against having him there. One would think if he was living in his home, of all places, he would show some courtesy to the host. Sadly, manners were a thing many in this city did not posess.

And then there was that entire thing about.. what Tatsumi-san had told him, that one day. Ranmaru's expression hardened briefly when he recalled Seishirou-san repeating it to him. A traitor. No.. he didn't want to think on it, so he pushed it out of his thoughts and smiled again.

"Ranmaru isn't certain what makes you dislike company so much. But it is best to have someone than not have someone at all, you know.."

"That's not true," he said quietly, "people only leave. In the end, you'll always be alone." Or so life seemed to go with him; no relationship was permanent. "So it doesn't matter."

After a moment, he finally wiggled out again to finish eating quietly, trying to go as fast as possible. Unfortunately, he went a little too fast, and as Ranmaru had warned earlier, found himself with a headache. Not that he was going to show such a human weakness to the other; quickly hiding back under the covers with a little groan.

"Kamui-kun.." what a child he was. "Please sit up, you'll give yourself indigestion." did this boy like making people worry for him? For all that he tried to remain away from others, it was almost always going to have the opposite effect, people that cared for him -would- care and worry and he would continue to behave this way. It was inconsiderate, and while Ranmaru could understand why, there was a limit.

Moving the tray back, Ranmaru sighed and poured Kamui some tea to soothe the problem when he'd be a little more relaxed.

"Being alone has it's own benefit, though.." he murmured. "That just means you can meet more people. And you'll have loved them or hated them, and felt instead of being an empty shell of nothing. Those who can exist and not take full advantage of it, even if it isn't living.. it's pitiful, don't you think?"

Kamui almost argued with Ranmaru when he'd asked him to sit up, almost insisting that he just doesn't get indigestion, and thus there was no reason it, but... well, maybe it'd get the other to back off a little if he was at least SOMEWHAT easy to work with. Besides, his back was getting sore from laying down all the time, anyway.

"I don't believe in pity," he said quietly, but almost forcefully, taking a sip of tea. It was kinda true, though: he didn't pity anyone, and he certainly didn't want anyone pitying him. Sure, it kinda happened anyway, but... he didn't like it. It was pointless. "And I don't see a point in meeting new people. Everyone I come in contact with... bad things happen to them."

"Then what do you expect to do, Kamui-kun?" he asked in a serious tone. "If all you wish is for people to leave you alone so you wont be a burden to them, then all you need to do is stop communicating with them, or not even staying in contact, isn't it?" he spoke as-a-matter-of-factly.

"But if you want to receive comfort while not being a burden, then be honest about it. It's not right to make others worry when you know they would go out of their way to do so if they knew you were in pain and you are only dragging it out."

He didn't mean himself only, he was speaking for Subaru, as well as Kamui's friends who would care. At this rate, Kamui would only burn himself alive.

He turned to look directly at the boy, his silver gaze locking with the other's now.

"Ranmaru wants to make things right for you, but it only seems as though you wish to punish Ranmaru for something that wasn't in his control."

A glare was all Ranmaru got in return at first, before Kamui finally looked away and spoke. "You only have an interest in me because I'm connected to Subaru." He crossed his arms in front of him, still staring downwards. "If I wasn't, you wouldn't even have acknowledged that I existed. It's the same with Sakurazuka." An obviously displeased huff left him. "That bastard has been bugging the hell out of me, simply because he knows I'm close to Subaru."

Kamui had to admit, now... that he was curious as to how Ranmaru would take his words. He knew the other was suspicious of him, and this could either confirm his suspicions or confuse them. On one hand, he was saying he was communicating with Seishirou, and on the other... he was saying that he hated him and wanted him to leave him be. All of which were entirely true.

"That is where you are entirely wrong, Kamui-kun." he replied stiffly. "Ranmaru didn't meet those that eventually became his friends simply because they had connections with someone else." that sort of mentality sickened him, and he was going to speak strongly about him. "Would someone who wasn't a friend give up their peace of mind to make sure you were comfortable?!"

The blood drained from his face when Kamui mentioned Seishirou's pestering. He'd been bugging him too, but this just further confirmed the suspicion he'd had for a while. Then, with a frown on his face, Ranmaru settled back, moving an arm across his chest and the other close to his chin.

"He has been inquisitive with Ranmaru as well, that Seishirou-san. Kamui-kun, he'll only hurt you. He doesn't seem to have the same love for Subaru-san as one would believe he did.." he turned to look at Kamui with a concerned gaze, then sighed.

"You're too stubborn for your own good, Kamui-kun. But please.. whatever you have left, don't waste it by being his pawn. From what Subaru-san told me about him.. he's cruel and merciless, and will remain that way. If what Tatsumi-san did to Ranmaru on that curse day was any indication, there's no telling what he would do to one so obviously distraught himself.." he meant Kamui directly, and he was also quietly telling him his confirmed suspicion as well as telling him that while Kamui was fully responsible for his own actions, he wasn't going to give him any trouble but the rightful warnings that were necessary.

"I KNOW," Kamui practically wailed, burrowing his face in his hands and massaging his temples. "He's a heartless bastard, and I know that. But I also know that he won't stop until he gets what he wants." His hands settled back in his lap again, one hand rubbing his other wrist. "I... I haven't been giving him what he wants, and so he's been torturing me lately. When I disappear," he lightly touched a mostly-healed bruise a bit further up his arm, "that's sometimes what's happening. There is nothing I can do." He, of course, never should have entered into the arrangement in the first place, but... too late to think about that.

"At least he can't kill me or anything," he added with a bitter little laugh.

The overwhelming sense of sorrow wouldn't leave him, and at Kamui's words, things were simply piled on top of each other until all he felt was sympathy and he moved so that he was close to Kamui, but still giving him enough of his personal space if he wished to move away. A hesitant hand went to Kamui's shoulder and he gave it a light touch.

"It is not a matter of whether you can die or not, Kamui-kun. Look at what it's doing to you. It's tearing you inside out and making you hate not only yourself, but the possbility of luck you could have with anyone else." and that was just heartbreaking.

Genuine concern in the boy's tone, Ranmaru shook his head. "You don't want to be this way. Unless you are a masochist, there is no way you can enjoy this pain you're going through.." he sighed, eyes filed with worry.

"What is he asking of you? You don't need to go through this.. I.. I don't want you to suffer anything, Kamui-kun. Isn't this enough? You don't deserve this pain!"

The younger boy looked at Ranmaru, simply staring with confusion. Why the hell wasn't he yelling at him or something? Why wasn't he hating him? He had pretty much just confessed to having agreed to work with Seishirou, and yet...

"He's been wanting me to give him information about you," he finally said, turning away. "On a curse day, I had agreed to help him, but after that day... I didn't want to. I didn't want Subaru to be hurt, so... all I've been telling Sakurazuka is stupid stuff. Things I know can't be useful to him at all. Sometimes I even make things up." A sigh. "But he's caught onto my stalling. All I can do now is take what he does to me."

Kamui stayed silent for a moment, then made a move to get up. "I should probably leave."

Ranmaru's eyes widened in surprise. While Kamui was pretty much agreeing to everything he suspected him of, it occured to him that there was the possibility he was forcing himself to do it. Out of envy, spite.. guilt? Moving a hand to Kamui's hand, Ranmaru stopped him when he made to move away, the concerned expression never leaving him.

"You need to go nowhere. You obviously don't want to do this, and you do not need to. Kamui-kun.."

He hesitated, before drawing close and giving him a light hug before letting go, looking at the boy's face. "Stay here. You needn't fear Seishirou-san. I'll protect you. And so will Subaru-san." he smiled a bit. "And don't you dare try running away and doing something stupid."

Petting the other's cheek good-naturedly, he drew back and knelt again. "But.. there's a condition. I want you to go tell Subaru-san everything. Every single thing. He will not be happy, but Ranmaru would rather you have that, than suffer Seishirou-san's torture."

He'd never forgive that man for harassing both Kamui and Subaru.

"Please, Kamui-kun."

Kamui was, well... "shell-shocked" seemed the appropriate phrase for this situation. Now Ranmaru knew EVERYTHING, that Kamui had originally plotted against him before backing out, and yet... he still wasn't upset with him. In fact, he was being all... freakishly nice, hugging him and such. Kamui just didn't get it.

Or maybe he was mad, and was just hiding it. That condition... was pretty harsh, after all. "N-no. I can't. Subaru will hate me, and then..." he suddenly realized that he was crying, terrified of confronting his friend, "then I really will have nothing left. I don't want Subaru to hate me..." Which was a stupid concern to have when, in hindsight, he'd done almost everything possible to make sure the older man would.

Ranmaru didn't like seeing Kamui like this, and when he started to cry, he did the only thing that was right in the situation. He moved his arms around Kamui's back, and pulled the boy close to him, letting him cry into his chest, bringing up another hand to stroke his hair to soothe him.

That Seishirou-san.. what would it take for him to leave them alone? Ranmaru was an outside in all of this, but.. they were here together and just because they were from the same world and he wasn't didn't mean that allowed him to play by those rules here as well!

"Kamui-kun, stop talking nonsense.." he whispered against his hair. "Subaru-san might get angry, but he'd never hate you. He cares for you. He just never shows it in an outright way, but he cares for you. Even if it's not the way you want it, is it right to hurt him and condemn him for something he wants as much as you..? It hurts him when you're hurt.. you have to see that.."

Sighing and trying to calm Kamui down, Ranmaru whispered, "Ranmaru will help you if you want. And.. Ranmaru isn't angry. A bit disappointed that you did all this.. but you're human. You make mistakes.. as do we all. Ne..?"

"But I only make really bad ones..." he whimpered, actually allowing the other to try to comfort him, "people really get hurt." Kamui took a deep, shaky breath, letting one hand fist slightly into the other's clothes. "I'm no better than him, you know. I betrayed Subaru. That makes me just like Sakurazuka."

After a few moments, he managed to calm down a bit, pulling back to wipe his eyes. "I have to go see Sakurazuka one more time, though. I need to tell him I quit." That, he knew, was NOT going to go over well, but... he'd deal with it. "And I don't want you or Subaru involved."

"But you didn't know any better. Envy.. makes people do strange things." he stated softly, stroking Kamui's hair one more time before letting go. However, when Kamui spoke of going and seeing Seishirou one more time, Ranmaru's expression changed to worry.

"Kamui-kun.." he extended a hand to wipe Kamui's cheeks with his fingers. "Please don't go alone. Please. If you tell him that, and you're alone, there's no telling what will happen."

He looked pleadingly into the other's eyes.

"Please tell Subaru-san first, Kamui-kun. He'll know what to do. We don't know what Seishirou-san will do."

"I'll tell Subaru first, but if he reacts really badly, then I'm definitely going alone." Which, he had convinced himself, would be exactly what would happen. He couldn't see Subaru just forgiving him; of course, Kamui tended to be a pessimist anyway. "Because then it won't matter what happens to me anyway.

Kamui moved to stand against the wall, leaning. "Let's go find Subaru. I want to get this over with. I'm as prepared now for his rejection as I'll ever be."

Ranmaru stood up with him, but he knew he had to discourage him from leaving, no matter what happened. Kamui was already expecting the worst, and he had to find a way to make sure he didn't hurt himself any more than he already was getting himself into.

"It matters what happens to you, Kamui-kun. You're important to him.. and to me!" he told him urgently. He moved over and touched his shoulder again. "Listen to whatever he says, he'll never want badly for you. Especially if badly is like Sakurazuka Seishirou."

A small smile appeared on his face, offering him a hand. Even if Kamui didn't take it, it would be something like an encouraging gesture.

"A friend never leaves one behind. Let's go."

Once again, Kamui found himself dumbfounded by the other's reactions. Ranmaru... really cared about him, it seemed. He felt that Kamui was important to him. But why? The younger boy had been nothing but a total ass to him!

Either way, now was not the time to ponder such things; what with him about to practically get his head bitten off. Or so he assumed. "O-okay," he finally said, shyly, as he timidly took the other's hand.

Kamui's rections were almost cute and he was mildly surprised when Kamui did in fact, return the hold on his hand. A smile appearing on his face, he closed his fingers around Kamui's and gave him an encouraging look.

"Everything will be alright. You'll see." With that, he lead Kamui out of his room, hoping for some success..

[ooc; New thread is good! This one ends here? We could do comment-style on Ranmaru's journal if you want it to go faster!]

[OOC: Okay! End! And commenting is fine. Just tell Subaru-mun what's going on, and... how do you want Kamui to jump in?]

[ooc; Comment on Ran's latest entry? And we can go from there. Subaru-mun is in!]

We already started the thread on Ran's journal. You can feel free to have Kamui respond to Subaru's last comment, just make it filtered is all, to show that it's just the three of them.

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