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Log Part 4: Complete
When; Highschool curse day
Rating; This one's a hard R, toeing the border of NC
Characters; Hotaru and Archer.
Summary; Finally, a healthy topping of citrusy-scented goodness. XD
Log;
Unable to resist, Archer kissed the top of Hotaru's ear lightly, before nibbling on it just a bit. His arms gripped her shoulders a bit tighter, not to keep her from getting away but to make sure that his hands didn't start wandering. The girls Archer had been with previously didn't mind if things got very... physical very quickly.
She caught her breath in a slight whimper as he nuzzled, then nipped her ear. Physicality...it wasn't so much that she would have minded, it was that...she was inexperienced. Shy. Not completely comfortable with things. Everything was all so new to her, so unexpected. Feeling his arms tighten around her, she unconsciously tilted her head to the side, giving him even better access to that ear and the side of her neck.
Archer grinned as Hotaru tilted her neck to give him better access. Taking this as a sign of encouragement he began to gently kiss along her ear and down her neck. When he reached the area where her neck joined her shoulder he bit down softly.
A small moan and her fingers tightened in the fabric of his jacket, shifting slightly as though to reach up for his shoulders. She held them back, though, unsure as to what was acceptable and what wasn't, softly whimpering his name.
"A...Archer...."
The senior smiled and bite down a bit more on that spot on her neck before lightly licking the mark he had made. She had definitely liked that.
"Yes Hotaru?"
She swallowed hard, one hand finally making it's trembling way up to the back of his neck. Hotaru was sure he could feel her shaking, but she didn't care. Whatever he had done, it had felt good. Taking a shaky breath, she tugged on his head slightly, face flushed with embarrassment at the fact that she was actually saying what she was saying.
"M...more...."
"Mmmm, of course Hotaru," he muttered, nibbling around the back of her neck until he came to the same spot on her other shoulder and biting down on it gently.
His hands slid across the top or her chest down her side, his hands snaking up under her school uniform as they slid across her stomach. If Archer were ever thankful for all the past girlfriends he'd had, it was the fact that they had taught him some about the sort of things girls like to have done to them.
Her head dropped back, resting against his chest as eyes slid closed and she bit her bottom lip at the feel of his fingertips sliding across her stomach. No one had ever touched her like this, even though she knew perfectly well all the possibilities. Afterall, her brother wasn't always that discreet in his liaisons. One hand floundered it's way up to the back of his head, fingers tangling in his white hair as she whimpered, panting slightly at the feel of his lips and tongue on her skin.
Archer bit down harder on Hotaru's neck. The action was entirely involuntary, the girl's own reactions causing his arousal and passion to heighten. The feel of her fingers clutching his hair was incredibly and the panting was driving him insane.
"Oh god Hotaru," he said before his voice rumbled with a lusty growl.
She never would have thought, in her wildest dreams, that she was the sort of girl who would have enjoyed being bitten. But there was no mistaking the sparks that his teeth sent shooting down her spine as they pressed insistently against her skin. Whimpering, she tightened her grip on his hair, leaning her head back and to the side, baring her entire neck for him, other hand on his arm, fingers clenched in the material of his jacket.
"Hotaru," he said breathlessly as he kissed back along her neck. "You're amazing..."
Archer ran his hands along her stomach again, this time his fingers slipping under the top of her skirt ever so slightly, dragging slowly along the skin concealed there.
"You have no idea what you do to me."
The only response she could really give was a whimper as his lips continued to trace fire along her neck, fingertips dancing patterns across her skin. He was right, of course. She really didn't know what she did to him, as she'd never been IN a relationship before this one. And while there was one part of her that was protesting, screaming that she was going too far, too fast, it was quickly being drowned out by the portion of her brain that simply craved his touch the way it had craved it for the last year or so.
Archer continued to nip at her neck, being careful to bite down soft enough to not quite leave any permanent marks. He didn't want her going to the prom with a bunch of marks on her neck.
While his lips explored her neck, his hand continued to work itself back and forth across her waist, slowly sliding further down with each motion. His fingers were almost entirely below the waist of her skirt now and he could feel the warmth that was emanating from there.
The oddest thing about the situation for Archer is that while he could feel his own arousal grow he wanted to make it enjoyable for Hotaru more than himself. He was completely lost in focusing on her pleasure. He had never felt that way before and he wasn't sure it was an unpleasant sensation at all.
Had she been thinking about it, Hotaru might have freaked out at the thought of where that hand was likely headed, but right now she was too drunk on the sensation to care. Whimpering, her fingers fisted and relaxed, spasming slightly as they curled around the material on his arm, eyes heavy-lidded and hazy beneath black bangs. She bit her lip against the little whimpers that seemed to rise up in her throat every time his lips met heated skin, not even considering that this might be a little faster then she'd intended to take things.
Archer's lazy kisses finally began to find there way to Hotaru's mouth, as if pulled there eventually by some irresistible force. The same force was drawing his hand further and further down so that the two reached their intended destination at the same time.
His lips pressed against hers as his hand slid between her legs and along her opening.
"Hotaru..."
Lips parted in a small strangled cry as her hips shifted involuntarily against his hand, eyes nearly rolling back in her head. This was definitely not what she'd been expecting, yet right now it seemed as though the surprise was rapidly being replaced by the realization that, expecting it or not, she wanted it. Even though she'd never in her wildest dreams -- well ok, maybe in some of those really wild ones she wouldn't admit to having -- have thought she'd be in this situation. She moaned against his kiss, tongue seeking his more out of pure instinct than anything else, fingers tightening on his arms.
"A..Archer....don't....s..stop...."
Archer was glad Hotaru felt that way, because he had no intention of stopping. He wanted to give this to her, wanted to make up for all the teasing she had gone through for caring about him, for having any sort of crush on him. He wanted to reward her for having faith in him even when he didn't deserve it.
"I won't," he whispered against her mouth before his tongue met her and he groaned loudly. His hand began to move up and down along her with almost agonizing slowness.
It was probably a very good thing they were in such a secluded area, otherwise anyone nearby would probably have heard the moan that tore from her throat as his hand continued it's gentle ministrations. Her hips bucked against his hand as her back arched, tongue colliding with his as one hand held his hand in place, unconsciously unwilling to let him stop what he was doing.
The fact that innocent little Hotaru was reacting so eagerly to what he was doing drove Archer wild. Her tiny little body trembled against his and delicate fingers gripped his wrist, ensuring that Archer wouldn't pull his hand away. But he had no intention of stopping.
"I want you to feel so good Hotaru," he whispered to her between passionaite kisses. "Better than you've ever felt," he added as his finger began to rub on the hard nub of her clit.
Her moans had turned into passionate little cries of his name, hips pushing against his hand as his finger found that most sensitive of spots. She was trembling so hard she wasn't sure if she'd have been able to stand up had it not been for his arm around her, head thrown back, lips pressed to his in an attempt to muffle the moans that seemed to spiral up with every movement of his hand, echoing the sparks that shot along her limbs.
Archer had had girls call his name before, but never had it sounded so sweet as coming out of the lips of Hotaru. Despite that fact that he was technically getting nothing out of this himself Archer couldn't bring himself to stop.
His finger brushed lighter against her clit as he moved faster, increasing the speed of his movements as he moved up and down. The young man could feel her growing warmer and wetter as her hips pressed back against him.
"Hotaru" he growled. "I'm going to slide in you... it will hurt for a moment but then it will pass. It'll feel so good but you have to trust me..."
Gulping back another moan, she nodded. It was really the only affirmation she could give, and she wasn't even really thinking about what she was oking. But at the same time, it didn't matter to her. She trusted him somehow, despite the fact that they hadn't even known each other that long. Or maybe it was just the moment, the passion and sensation spiraling together and around her. Her mind was fuzzy, clogged with feeling, and she didn't care about anything except the feel of his finger against her, and that he didn't stop.
"Just....don't stop....please...."
Archer nodded and slid his finger down. She was wet enough that he was able to slide easily into her initial opening. He felt her body tense under him. He looked at her face and saw ecstasy there and knew that she was so far gone she probably wasn't even aware of him other than his hand. It was exactly how he wanted her to feel.
He pressed slowly until he met resistance and then kissed her firmly as he pressed his finger quickly into her.
She could feel his finger as it slid slowly into her, reaching where no one had ever touched before. It wasn't exactly painful at first, more a strange feeling than an unpleasant one. Hotaru felt him reach her barrier, and then winced at the stinging pain as he pushed past it, whimpering slightly against his kiss. He was right, it had hurt. But it wasn't an unbearable pain, and she squeezed her eyes shut against the sting of the tears at the corners.
Archer gripped her tighter as he felt her flinch in pain and heard her whimper slightly. He slowly withdrew his finger, sliding almost all the way out before he pushed it slowly back in, then repeated the process again.
"Let me know when it starts to feel better Hotaru," he said, his voice low with his own desire and passion.
Her inner muscles squeezed his finger slightly as it slid back out only to push back in, gradually becoming used to the intrusion as long fingers slipped easily in and out of her. The pain was fading, being replaced by a wonderfully full sensation that seemed to radiate out from the pit of her stomach. Legs trembling, she let her head drop back against his shoulder with a moan as fingers tightened slightly on his wrist, breathless whimper making it's way past slightly parted lips.
Archer smiled as he felt Hotaru begin to react to his ministrations again. He continued his rhythmic movements in and out of her as one of his other fingers reached up to brush her clit again. Unable to resist himself, Archer craned his neck down to once again bite where her neck met her shoulders.
She bit back a little scream as teeth met skin again, hips grinding against his hand almost of their own will, considering Hotaru didn't particularly feel as though she had any control over her body right now. Nails bit into his skin as her fingers clenched tighter on his arm, her own teeth finding her bottom lip as she fought back moans, panting and writhing.
"A..Archer....need......want more.....please...."
Archer moaned and nodded, beginning to move in and out of her faster, encouraged by the sounds she was making as well as her aggressive reaction to what he was doing. He could tell this was definitely the first time she had done anything like this, experienced anything like this. It was amazing to watch her expression as the pleasure took her.
"Promise... won't stop Hotaru... I promise..."
As his fingers moved faster, her eyes shot open, hips bucking wildly as his fingertip brushed against a spot that sent fireworks shooting off behind her eyes. Biting her tongue against the little scream, she nearly choked as the finger brushed over that one place again. She could feel something coiling, almost like a spring in the pit of her stomach, that hot feeling intensifying, carrying her somewhere she dind't know, but knew she wanted to go. Her whimpered moans were louder, carrying a pleading note as she wordlessly begged for more.
He could feel her body growing closer to that point where she would explode in pleasure. He silently prayed for it to come soon, wanting Hotaru to feel that moment of ecstasy and feel it because of him. He began to work faster and harder now, moving over to bite that area on her neck that she loved so much on the other side of her neck as his other hand traced down under her skirt to gently brush against her clit.
"Come for me Hotaru," he whispered in her ear. "I want you to feel it."
Hands clenched in his arms, head thrown back and to the side so he was free to do what he chose, she could feel something snap inside her, fireworks going off behind her eyes in a cacophony of white light that drowned out everything, even the rushing of her own blood. With a low, keening wail that was his name, she felt every muscle in her body spasm as she tumbled over that edge into an oblivion of sensation, vision going black momentarily, the only thing real the feel of his hands touching her, his body supporting her.
Archer felt it when it happened, felt her tighten around his fingers and her whole body jerk as she called his name in the throes of pleasure. It wasn't the first time a girl had done that but Archer thought that the sound coming from Hotaru's lips had to be the most beautiful sound in the world.
He continued to move in and out of her, gradually slowing as he worked her down from her orgasm, her tiny body trembling against his.
Panting, entire body shaking with the aftermath, she sagged against him, legs feeling rubbery and boneless. She didn't really know what had just happened -- ok, so maybe she had a pretty good idea, but she didn't necessarily know all the technicalities -- but it would certainly take her brain a while to process it. At the moment, all she was aware of was Archer behind her, his arms wrapped around her. Drawing in a shuddering breath, she kept fingers fisted in his sleeves, feeling as though if she let go she would fall.
He slowly slid his hands out from her skirt, wrapping his arms around her waist as he felt her body go limp. Casually he slid down to the ground with her until they were both sitting, the girl cradled in his arms.
"Thank you," he said, kissing her softly. "Thank you for letting me give you that."
Heart still pounding, she rested her head against his chest, long legs drawn up into his lap as she glanced up at him through sweaty black bangs.
"W...why?"
"Because I wanted to give you something good," he said, one hand lifted up to gently brush aside her hair so that he had an unobstructed view of her lavender eyes.
"Because you had to go through so many horrible things because of your feelings for me I wanted to do something to make up for it," he explained. "Because I want to give you pleasure."
She nodded with a slight sigh, shifting in his lap to settle herself more against him, frowning slightly.
"Archer...something's poking me..."
Without much thought to the situation, she reached a hand under herself to try and move the offending object.
Archer hissed slightly as Hotaru reached behind her and grabbed a hold of him before he could stop her. He didn't even have time to be embarrassed about it because it felt so good. He gave a throaty growl and leaned his head down forward on her shoulder.
"Hotaru..."
She jerked her hand back as if it had been burned, not expecting that reaction. Obviously, she really was fairly innocent in these sorts of matters.
"I...I'm sorry, I...didn't mean to hurt anything..."
Archer gave a chuckle and shook his head at the innocence of the girl.
"No, didn't hurt anything," he said, smiling at her before taking a moment to nuzzle her neck. "It was quite the opposite. Just surprised me is all."
"So that means...you liked it?"
She didn't really know what to do. Afterall, she knew the basics of human anatomy, knew how things worked, but....she'd never really had much experience at all. But....he'd said it felt good...and if that was anything like the "good" that he'd just done to her, maybe she should return the favour? Biting her bottom lip slightly, she reached out with a single finger to hesitantly trace over that same spot, watching for his reaction.
Archer's eyelids fluttered as her tiny finger sent a surge of pleasure through his body. A soft moan escaped his lips and he nodded his head in agreement.
"I liked it a lot Hotaru," he said with a sigh. "I like you touching me anywhere really..."
"You...you do?"
Experimentally, she ran the fingertip along his length again, pressing slightly harder. It...wouldn't hurt, would it? Especially not if he said he liked it....
A growl that was pure lust rumbled in Archer's chest as she drew her finger along him again. His legs twitched slightly in anticipation and a wonderful sense of almost agony.
"Oh god that's good," he murmured. "But Hotaru, you don't have to. T-that's not why I
"I...I know I don't have to.....do..do you not want me to?"
He seemed to be enjoying it, but maybe she was reading the signs wrong? It wasn't as though she had anything to go by to compare it to.
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Archer's hands clenched into fists as he slowly nodded his head. God knew he wanted her to continue but he didn't want to force her.
"Only if you want to," he said, his voice straining. "It feels really good though."
Tracing the finger up and down, watching his reactions, she shook her head slightly.
"I...I like making you feel good, but....I don't....know what to do..."
"Ngh, you're doing a good job so far," he gasped. Archer had never had someone so hesitant do this before. It added a whole new layer to things. His body was practically going crazy with desire and all she was doing was lightly tracing a finger up and down his length.
"Always nice to not have clothing in the way," he suggested.
"O...ok..."
Clothes. He'd said clothes in the way weren't good. Well that made sense, given how HIS hands had found their way underneath her skirt. Chewing thoughtfully on her lip, fingers walked their way slowly to the top edge of his pants, fingertips curling under the material just slightly, tugging at it as if to test and see if they would slip inside.
Archer literally held his breath as Hotaru experimentally worked her hand into his pants. Her fingers were small enough that she could probably slip her hand in easily but she wouldn't be able to move much.
"Just... you can undo my pants if they get in the way," he told her. Archer would have just done it himself, but he didn't want the girl to think he was frustrated with her efforts, since nothing could be further from the truth.
With a slight nod, fingertips grasped metal and she tugged on the zipper, loosening the front of his hands and giving her plenty of room to slip fingertips beneath the waistband, seeking their destination, though she wasn't sure what she'd do when she got there.
As her fingers brushed along his length, Archer arched his back and moaned her name. His eyes were lightly closed as his breathing began to quicken, his body almost trembling with desire.
"That feels... very... good," he gasped.
His reactions proved to be at least some degree of encouragement as she let her flingers slide further, feeling, exploring, tracing over contours and shapes, nails lightly scraping against sensitive skin.
"It...it really does?"
Every touch sent a tremble through is body, like rocks dropped in a pond. Pleasure rippled through him and then drew back in towards her fingers as they touched back again.
"Mmmmm, very much so Hotaru," he said, his voice breathless. "You, have very good instincts."
Well, that was good, she assumed. Biting her lip again, she slid fingers further, curling them around him and sending the tips pattering along his skin as her grip tightened. She wasn't really sure how much was too much, it was obviously a sensitive spot -- she knew that not only from his reactions, but from her own work in the nurse's office -- and she didn't want to be too rough.
Archer's hips bucked upward as delicate fingers wrapped around his length. He was completely rigid in her hand, even the slightest movements she was making caused his body tremble with pleasure.
"Don't... please don't stop," he moaned. "Please..."
Hotaru didn't really know enough to work up a rhythm, instead just letting her fingers explore, wrapping around him and sliding along rigid flesh before letting go and dragging nails oh-so-gently across skin before tracing fingertips along angles and shapes.
"I...I won't..."
Archer had to admit that this was definitely a unique experience for him. It was very different, but not in a bad way. There were definitely benefits to having someone inexperienced do this. She seemed very innovative.
"It feels so good Hotaru," he said. "Y-your touch is like... electric velvet..."
Swallowing back her nervousness -- which was rapidly disappearing with his encouragement -- she thought back to moments before, when the roles had been reversed. It had...intensified things for her when he'd pressed harder, maybe the same was true for him? Only one way to find out. Wrapping slim fingers around him, she slid them along his length, squeezing slightly as she did.
"Oh god Hotaru," Archer growled. "That's so good..."
The increased pressure intensified what he was feeling tenfold. His body practically thrummed with pressure as the arousal he felt moments before while bringing her to orgasm was now being given an outlet.
"Start off slow," he told her. "Then go faster... like I did with you."
"Ok....."
Turning her attention back to him, she repeated the motion with her hand, squeezing gently as fingers slid along in an easy rhythm. On a whim, she leaned up to press lips to the hollow of his throat, tongue flicking out just slightly to taste his skin. Obviously, with a bit of guidance, she was feeling more daring.
As her tongue licked his skin Archer let out a primal growl, biting his lip to keep from making the noise louder than it already was. He reached up and threaded his fingers through her hair.
"You can grip a bit harder," he whimpered. "It already feels so good though Hotaru..."
Taking the growling whimper as a cue to keep going, she nibbled on his neck, mimicking his earlier actions towards her, fingers tightening fractionally as she did so. Shifting slightly, she let her hand move a little bit faster, speeding up the rhythm slightly.
"Like that?"
"H-hotoru," he moaned, voice full of need. For some reason it felt like she was going too fast, too slow, and just the right speed all at once.
Archer leaned his head back, eyes shut tightly as he gave her better access to his skin. It seemed that with every small bite she took his body was going to explode with pleasure, her teeth amplifying what was going on with her hand.
She kept going, letting her speed slowly increase, keeping her movements nice and even. Hotaru may not have had any experience in this, but she was a fast learner in regards to most things. Pulling back slightly, she leaned in again before she bit down hard on the juncture of his neck and shoulder, letting go to slide her tongue over the teeth marks.
Archer could feel himself approaching his climax as Hotaru's pace increased. His body was going wild with pleasure, as if every nerve ending was burning with ecstasy and was just waiting to be released.
"Close," he panted. "So close, please don't stop, please Hotaru..."
Nodding, she kept up with it, nibbling her way up to run her tongue along the edge of his earlobe, feeling the slight tremors through his frame.
It was pleasure almost to the point of pain as everything faded away except for Hotaru and what she was doing to him. His entire world became her hands and her lips. It was as if his entire body was concentrating on those two points to the exclusion of all else.
"Hotaru," he said breathlessly. "Hotaru, Hotaru, Hotaru..." he chanted, her name a mantra of pleasure.
And all at once it came, an explosion of pleasure radiating out from his hardness and washing over the rest of hs body. He cried out her name as his hips jerked up involuntarily and he felt himself throb in her hand.
"Hotaru..." he gasped.
She kept going, remembering how he had eased her down from that height, pressing mouth to his to swallow up his cries, other hand threading through sweat-damp white hair. After a moment, she pulled back to level violet gaze at him, cocking her head to the side.
"Was that...ok?"
Archer kissed Hotaru hungrily as she slowed down, his mind completely shutting down with all the pleasure it was experiencing. Once he was able to think again Archer swallowed and nodded, gasping for air.
"Oh god yes Hotaru," he moaned, eyes fluttering open. "It was amazing."
She smiled slightly, glad that for all her inexperience, she was apparently able to do things right. Pulling back her hand, she surveyed it quietly for a moment while her mind turned over what the proper course of action was. Remembering something she'd overheard in the locker room, she wrinkled up her nose slightly and licked her hand. They'd said it tasted good...
Archer panted and ran a hand through his hair, blinking his eyes as he tried to get his vision to stop being blurry. As he was able to see he watched as Hotaru tentatively reached up and licked her hand. Had he been able to, he would have warn her against it, but he was too surprised to say anything until it was too late.
"Ahh... Hotaru-chan," he stuttered. "You don't... you can just wash it off in the stream..."
She made a face, wrinkling up her nose even more. Obviously those other girls must have been on something, or else they completely didn't know what they were talking about.
"I don't think they know what they're talking about...."
Archer couldn't help but chuckle and shake his head. She was so naive and so trusting but at the same time she drove him wild with desire. It was something he could definitely get used to.
"It's, ahhh, there are..." Archer bit his lip in thought, trying to think how he could explain that everyone was different? Did he even need to? "You just don't need to do that Hotaru. Especially when there's water right by."
She felt her cheeks burn slightly, embarrassed at herself for not knowing something that was apparently common knowledge. But then, it wasn't as though the other girls had been very...considerate at the time. No, they had focused more on the laughing, the teasing, the questions about whether she was "even into boys". And trying to make her even more uncomfortable by giving her details on things she hadn’t wanted to know.
"Don't worry about it Hotaru you... you didn't have to do that and it was amazing," he said, then grinned at her. "You have very good instincts. I can't wait to see what you can do after some more experience."
As soon as the words left his mouth, Archer regretted saying them. Not because they were true but because how they might be misconstrued. That's not why he was in this relationship.
"I'm sorry Hotaru, I didn't... I didn't mean to imply you had, that we... I don't want to pressure you into anything," he said.
Her face fell at his words, turning away slightly and biting her lip. Oh....so that was the real reason behind everything? She was just....a way to get some action... She shook her head, not saying anything.
Archer frowned as he saw Hotaru's face fall. What had he said? He thought he was doing the right thing.
"H-hotaru?" he asked hesitantly, reaching up to tilt her chin so her violent eyes looked into his hard grey ones. "What's wrong? I don't understand..."
Dark eyes flickered away, refusing to look at him. She pulled her chin back, staring at the ground again.
"I....I do. I'm glad I was useful....I won't bother you anymore, since....since you got what you wanted..."
Archer stared at Hotaru, a shocked and confused look on his face. He knew that it was impossible to understand women but this was beyond that even. He thought he had made it clear...
"Hotaru, what are you talking about?" he said. "I... I didn't want this. I mean, I wanted it, but I wasn't going to ask for it. I only did that to you because... you put up with so much for liking me I wanted to give you something back. Hotaru I want to wait before we have sex. I want to wait until you're ready and you feel comfortable. I think you're worth waiting for..."
"I don't think so....I'm not worth anything...."
She didn't know what to think anymore. She wanted to believe him, but it was hard to, with years of bad experiences and the like as all she had to rely on in matters of trust.
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It hurt Archer more than he thought possible to hear Hotaru say that. More than anything he wanted her to know that wasn't true, that she was worth everything to him.
"Please, don't say that Hotaru," he pleaded, unable to hide the pain in his voice. "You are worth everything to me. All those people at school... I don't care what they think. I don't care what my old friends will say now that I'm dating you... I only care that we're together. I don't want you for sex, I want you for you. Because you're kind, you're smart, you're funny, you're beautiful... all those things and you don't even see it all..."
"I....you really think so?..."
She needed him to reassure her, to make her believe it. Wiping her hand on the grass, she hung her head, biting her lip.
"Hotaru, I know so," he said, leaning forward to cup his face in her hands, lifting it up so she was looking him in the eye.
"I've spent every day for the past year and a half wish I had the guts to tell you how I feel," Archer told her. "The more I saw you the more I wanted to be with you but the more I realized you deserved someone so much better than me..."
"Then...tell me now..."
Her voice was small; scared and unsure, quavering slightly with the words. She didn't know if he was really able to tell her or not, but at least...she needed something to cling to. If he really had felt like that, for so long...
Archer bit his lip, trying to figure out how to put into words feelings he didn't even understand. He didn't know if he could, but he could try.
"Hotaru I... I think about you all the time. When you talk to me I feel like I'm important, like I matter. When you touch me it's like my whole body feels it, like some sort of warmth travels through me. I used to wish that I was just a normal high schooler, because then you would like me and wouldn't think I was conceited or stupid or any of the things I am but hate about myself. I wanted to work every day to be a better person so that I could maybe, just maybe be somewhere close to being good enough for you..."
She swallowed past the lump in her throat, tears welling up in her eyes before she flung arms around his waist.
"I love you, Archer....."
Archer was completely caught off guard at the girl's confession. She had said it once before but he was hoping he would have more time to think over his response... but if all those things he had said before weren't love then what could be?
"I love you too Hotaru," he told her softly. "I think I have for a very long time."
She almost felt her heart skip a beat at hearing him say those words. Lower lip trembling, she buried her face in his chest, sniffling slightly.
"You...you really....really..."
Archer wrapped his arms around her and held her, not knowing what else to do. They crying was slightly unsettling, he wasn't sure if she was happy or sad or... what was going on.
"Yes, really," he said. "I love you Hotaru. I love you."
"I love you too....."
Tightening her arms, she nuzzled her face against his chest, finally relaxing. He loved her. He really loved her. That thought pushed everything else aside, all the nervousness and doubts and concerns.
Archer reached out and began to gently stroke her hair, running his fingers through the dark, silken strands. He could feel the tenseness in her muscles relax as she sank against him. It was a wonderful feeling except for one thing.
"Ahh, Hotaru? C-can you sit up for a moment so I can... put everything away and zip my pants back up?"
There was a moment's pause before she turned bright red and jerked away with an embarrassed yelp, looking anywhere BUT at him.
"S..s..sorry!"
Archer chuckled and smiled as he took a moment to tuck everything in and the zip up and button his pants. When he was done he wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her back on to him, kissing her deeply.
"It's okay," he murmured against her lips. "It's a good problem to have."
Kissing him back, she let herself relax against him again, his arm around her waist a comforting feeling as she nodded.
"I...guess so."
Archer smiled and hugged her close, taking in the sensation of her tiny body fitting against his, remarking how well they can together. She was warm and soft against him, perhaps the most comforting feeling he had ever experienced.
"And thank you for that Hotaru, you didn't have to do that but... I'm glad you did. I have... reactions just thinking about you but actually be next to you. Well it was driving me wild."
She simply nodded, yawning slightly. Snuggling up against him, she let eyes flutter closed, comfortable to simply stay there like that.
Archer kissed the top of her head once more and closed his eyes as well. He couldn't think of a more perfect place than right here, falling asleep as he held Hotaru in his arms.
Rating; This one's a hard R, toeing the border of NC
Characters; Hotaru and Archer.
Summary; Finally, a healthy topping of citrusy-scented goodness. XD
Log;
Unable to resist, Archer kissed the top of Hotaru's ear lightly, before nibbling on it just a bit. His arms gripped her shoulders a bit tighter, not to keep her from getting away but to make sure that his hands didn't start wandering. The girls Archer had been with previously didn't mind if things got very... physical very quickly.
She caught her breath in a slight whimper as he nuzzled, then nipped her ear. Physicality...it wasn't so much that she would have minded, it was that...she was inexperienced. Shy. Not completely comfortable with things. Everything was all so new to her, so unexpected. Feeling his arms tighten around her, she unconsciously tilted her head to the side, giving him even better access to that ear and the side of her neck.
Archer grinned as Hotaru tilted her neck to give him better access. Taking this as a sign of encouragement he began to gently kiss along her ear and down her neck. When he reached the area where her neck joined her shoulder he bit down softly.
A small moan and her fingers tightened in the fabric of his jacket, shifting slightly as though to reach up for his shoulders. She held them back, though, unsure as to what was acceptable and what wasn't, softly whimpering his name.
"A...Archer...."
The senior smiled and bite down a bit more on that spot on her neck before lightly licking the mark he had made. She had definitely liked that.
"Yes Hotaru?"
She swallowed hard, one hand finally making it's trembling way up to the back of his neck. Hotaru was sure he could feel her shaking, but she didn't care. Whatever he had done, it had felt good. Taking a shaky breath, she tugged on his head slightly, face flushed with embarrassment at the fact that she was actually saying what she was saying.
"M...more...."
"Mmmm, of course Hotaru," he muttered, nibbling around the back of her neck until he came to the same spot on her other shoulder and biting down on it gently.
His hands slid across the top or her chest down her side, his hands snaking up under her school uniform as they slid across her stomach. If Archer were ever thankful for all the past girlfriends he'd had, it was the fact that they had taught him some about the sort of things girls like to have done to them.
Her head dropped back, resting against his chest as eyes slid closed and she bit her bottom lip at the feel of his fingertips sliding across her stomach. No one had ever touched her like this, even though she knew perfectly well all the possibilities. Afterall, her brother wasn't always that discreet in his liaisons. One hand floundered it's way up to the back of his head, fingers tangling in his white hair as she whimpered, panting slightly at the feel of his lips and tongue on her skin.
Archer bit down harder on Hotaru's neck. The action was entirely involuntary, the girl's own reactions causing his arousal and passion to heighten. The feel of her fingers clutching his hair was incredibly and the panting was driving him insane.
"Oh god Hotaru," he said before his voice rumbled with a lusty growl.
She never would have thought, in her wildest dreams, that she was the sort of girl who would have enjoyed being bitten. But there was no mistaking the sparks that his teeth sent shooting down her spine as they pressed insistently against her skin. Whimpering, she tightened her grip on his hair, leaning her head back and to the side, baring her entire neck for him, other hand on his arm, fingers clenched in the material of his jacket.
"Hotaru," he said breathlessly as he kissed back along her neck. "You're amazing..."
Archer ran his hands along her stomach again, this time his fingers slipping under the top of her skirt ever so slightly, dragging slowly along the skin concealed there.
"You have no idea what you do to me."
The only response she could really give was a whimper as his lips continued to trace fire along her neck, fingertips dancing patterns across her skin. He was right, of course. She really didn't know what she did to him, as she'd never been IN a relationship before this one. And while there was one part of her that was protesting, screaming that she was going too far, too fast, it was quickly being drowned out by the portion of her brain that simply craved his touch the way it had craved it for the last year or so.
Archer continued to nip at her neck, being careful to bite down soft enough to not quite leave any permanent marks. He didn't want her going to the prom with a bunch of marks on her neck.
While his lips explored her neck, his hand continued to work itself back and forth across her waist, slowly sliding further down with each motion. His fingers were almost entirely below the waist of her skirt now and he could feel the warmth that was emanating from there.
The oddest thing about the situation for Archer is that while he could feel his own arousal grow he wanted to make it enjoyable for Hotaru more than himself. He was completely lost in focusing on her pleasure. He had never felt that way before and he wasn't sure it was an unpleasant sensation at all.
Had she been thinking about it, Hotaru might have freaked out at the thought of where that hand was likely headed, but right now she was too drunk on the sensation to care. Whimpering, her fingers fisted and relaxed, spasming slightly as they curled around the material on his arm, eyes heavy-lidded and hazy beneath black bangs. She bit her lip against the little whimpers that seemed to rise up in her throat every time his lips met heated skin, not even considering that this might be a little faster then she'd intended to take things.
Archer's lazy kisses finally began to find there way to Hotaru's mouth, as if pulled there eventually by some irresistible force. The same force was drawing his hand further and further down so that the two reached their intended destination at the same time.
His lips pressed against hers as his hand slid between her legs and along her opening.
"Hotaru..."
Lips parted in a small strangled cry as her hips shifted involuntarily against his hand, eyes nearly rolling back in her head. This was definitely not what she'd been expecting, yet right now it seemed as though the surprise was rapidly being replaced by the realization that, expecting it or not, she wanted it. Even though she'd never in her wildest dreams -- well ok, maybe in some of those really wild ones she wouldn't admit to having -- have thought she'd be in this situation. She moaned against his kiss, tongue seeking his more out of pure instinct than anything else, fingers tightening on his arms.
"A..Archer....don't....s..stop...."
Archer was glad Hotaru felt that way, because he had no intention of stopping. He wanted to give this to her, wanted to make up for all the teasing she had gone through for caring about him, for having any sort of crush on him. He wanted to reward her for having faith in him even when he didn't deserve it.
"I won't," he whispered against her mouth before his tongue met her and he groaned loudly. His hand began to move up and down along her with almost agonizing slowness.
It was probably a very good thing they were in such a secluded area, otherwise anyone nearby would probably have heard the moan that tore from her throat as his hand continued it's gentle ministrations. Her hips bucked against his hand as her back arched, tongue colliding with his as one hand held his hand in place, unconsciously unwilling to let him stop what he was doing.
The fact that innocent little Hotaru was reacting so eagerly to what he was doing drove Archer wild. Her tiny little body trembled against his and delicate fingers gripped his wrist, ensuring that Archer wouldn't pull his hand away. But he had no intention of stopping.
"I want you to feel so good Hotaru," he whispered to her between passionaite kisses. "Better than you've ever felt," he added as his finger began to rub on the hard nub of her clit.
Her moans had turned into passionate little cries of his name, hips pushing against his hand as his finger found that most sensitive of spots. She was trembling so hard she wasn't sure if she'd have been able to stand up had it not been for his arm around her, head thrown back, lips pressed to his in an attempt to muffle the moans that seemed to spiral up with every movement of his hand, echoing the sparks that shot along her limbs.
Archer had had girls call his name before, but never had it sounded so sweet as coming out of the lips of Hotaru. Despite that fact that he was technically getting nothing out of this himself Archer couldn't bring himself to stop.
His finger brushed lighter against her clit as he moved faster, increasing the speed of his movements as he moved up and down. The young man could feel her growing warmer and wetter as her hips pressed back against him.
"Hotaru" he growled. "I'm going to slide in you... it will hurt for a moment but then it will pass. It'll feel so good but you have to trust me..."
Gulping back another moan, she nodded. It was really the only affirmation she could give, and she wasn't even really thinking about what she was oking. But at the same time, it didn't matter to her. She trusted him somehow, despite the fact that they hadn't even known each other that long. Or maybe it was just the moment, the passion and sensation spiraling together and around her. Her mind was fuzzy, clogged with feeling, and she didn't care about anything except the feel of his finger against her, and that he didn't stop.
"Just....don't stop....please...."
Archer nodded and slid his finger down. She was wet enough that he was able to slide easily into her initial opening. He felt her body tense under him. He looked at her face and saw ecstasy there and knew that she was so far gone she probably wasn't even aware of him other than his hand. It was exactly how he wanted her to feel.
He pressed slowly until he met resistance and then kissed her firmly as he pressed his finger quickly into her.
She could feel his finger as it slid slowly into her, reaching where no one had ever touched before. It wasn't exactly painful at first, more a strange feeling than an unpleasant one. Hotaru felt him reach her barrier, and then winced at the stinging pain as he pushed past it, whimpering slightly against his kiss. He was right, it had hurt. But it wasn't an unbearable pain, and she squeezed her eyes shut against the sting of the tears at the corners.
Archer gripped her tighter as he felt her flinch in pain and heard her whimper slightly. He slowly withdrew his finger, sliding almost all the way out before he pushed it slowly back in, then repeated the process again.
"Let me know when it starts to feel better Hotaru," he said, his voice low with his own desire and passion.
Her inner muscles squeezed his finger slightly as it slid back out only to push back in, gradually becoming used to the intrusion as long fingers slipped easily in and out of her. The pain was fading, being replaced by a wonderfully full sensation that seemed to radiate out from the pit of her stomach. Legs trembling, she let her head drop back against his shoulder with a moan as fingers tightened slightly on his wrist, breathless whimper making it's way past slightly parted lips.
Archer smiled as he felt Hotaru begin to react to his ministrations again. He continued his rhythmic movements in and out of her as one of his other fingers reached up to brush her clit again. Unable to resist himself, Archer craned his neck down to once again bite where her neck met her shoulders.
She bit back a little scream as teeth met skin again, hips grinding against his hand almost of their own will, considering Hotaru didn't particularly feel as though she had any control over her body right now. Nails bit into his skin as her fingers clenched tighter on his arm, her own teeth finding her bottom lip as she fought back moans, panting and writhing.
"A..Archer....need......want more.....please...."
Archer moaned and nodded, beginning to move in and out of her faster, encouraged by the sounds she was making as well as her aggressive reaction to what he was doing. He could tell this was definitely the first time she had done anything like this, experienced anything like this. It was amazing to watch her expression as the pleasure took her.
"Promise... won't stop Hotaru... I promise..."
As his fingers moved faster, her eyes shot open, hips bucking wildly as his fingertip brushed against a spot that sent fireworks shooting off behind her eyes. Biting her tongue against the little scream, she nearly choked as the finger brushed over that one place again. She could feel something coiling, almost like a spring in the pit of her stomach, that hot feeling intensifying, carrying her somewhere she dind't know, but knew she wanted to go. Her whimpered moans were louder, carrying a pleading note as she wordlessly begged for more.
He could feel her body growing closer to that point where she would explode in pleasure. He silently prayed for it to come soon, wanting Hotaru to feel that moment of ecstasy and feel it because of him. He began to work faster and harder now, moving over to bite that area on her neck that she loved so much on the other side of her neck as his other hand traced down under her skirt to gently brush against her clit.
"Come for me Hotaru," he whispered in her ear. "I want you to feel it."
Hands clenched in his arms, head thrown back and to the side so he was free to do what he chose, she could feel something snap inside her, fireworks going off behind her eyes in a cacophony of white light that drowned out everything, even the rushing of her own blood. With a low, keening wail that was his name, she felt every muscle in her body spasm as she tumbled over that edge into an oblivion of sensation, vision going black momentarily, the only thing real the feel of his hands touching her, his body supporting her.
Archer felt it when it happened, felt her tighten around his fingers and her whole body jerk as she called his name in the throes of pleasure. It wasn't the first time a girl had done that but Archer thought that the sound coming from Hotaru's lips had to be the most beautiful sound in the world.
He continued to move in and out of her, gradually slowing as he worked her down from her orgasm, her tiny body trembling against his.
Panting, entire body shaking with the aftermath, she sagged against him, legs feeling rubbery and boneless. She didn't really know what had just happened -- ok, so maybe she had a pretty good idea, but she didn't necessarily know all the technicalities -- but it would certainly take her brain a while to process it. At the moment, all she was aware of was Archer behind her, his arms wrapped around her. Drawing in a shuddering breath, she kept fingers fisted in his sleeves, feeling as though if she let go she would fall.
He slowly slid his hands out from her skirt, wrapping his arms around her waist as he felt her body go limp. Casually he slid down to the ground with her until they were both sitting, the girl cradled in his arms.
"Thank you," he said, kissing her softly. "Thank you for letting me give you that."
Heart still pounding, she rested her head against his chest, long legs drawn up into his lap as she glanced up at him through sweaty black bangs.
"W...why?"
"Because I wanted to give you something good," he said, one hand lifted up to gently brush aside her hair so that he had an unobstructed view of her lavender eyes.
"Because you had to go through so many horrible things because of your feelings for me I wanted to do something to make up for it," he explained. "Because I want to give you pleasure."
She nodded with a slight sigh, shifting in his lap to settle herself more against him, frowning slightly.
"Archer...something's poking me..."
Without much thought to the situation, she reached a hand under herself to try and move the offending object.
Archer hissed slightly as Hotaru reached behind her and grabbed a hold of him before he could stop her. He didn't even have time to be embarrassed about it because it felt so good. He gave a throaty growl and leaned his head down forward on her shoulder.
"Hotaru..."
She jerked her hand back as if it had been burned, not expecting that reaction. Obviously, she really was fairly innocent in these sorts of matters.
"I...I'm sorry, I...didn't mean to hurt anything..."
Archer gave a chuckle and shook his head at the innocence of the girl.
"No, didn't hurt anything," he said, smiling at her before taking a moment to nuzzle her neck. "It was quite the opposite. Just surprised me is all."
"So that means...you liked it?"
She didn't really know what to do. Afterall, she knew the basics of human anatomy, knew how things worked, but....she'd never really had much experience at all. But....he'd said it felt good...and if that was anything like the "good" that he'd just done to her, maybe she should return the favour? Biting her bottom lip slightly, she reached out with a single finger to hesitantly trace over that same spot, watching for his reaction.
Archer's eyelids fluttered as her tiny finger sent a surge of pleasure through his body. A soft moan escaped his lips and he nodded his head in agreement.
"I liked it a lot Hotaru," he said with a sigh. "I like you touching me anywhere really..."
"You...you do?"
Experimentally, she ran the fingertip along his length again, pressing slightly harder. It...wouldn't hurt, would it? Especially not if he said he liked it....
A growl that was pure lust rumbled in Archer's chest as she drew her finger along him again. His legs twitched slightly in anticipation and a wonderful sense of almost agony.
"Oh god that's good," he murmured. "But Hotaru, you don't have to. T-that's not why I
"I...I know I don't have to.....do..do you not want me to?"
He seemed to be enjoying it, but maybe she was reading the signs wrong? It wasn't as though she had anything to go by to compare it to.
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Archer's hands clenched into fists as he slowly nodded his head. God knew he wanted her to continue but he didn't want to force her.
"Only if you want to," he said, his voice straining. "It feels really good though."
Tracing the finger up and down, watching his reactions, she shook her head slightly.
"I...I like making you feel good, but....I don't....know what to do..."
"Ngh, you're doing a good job so far," he gasped. Archer had never had someone so hesitant do this before. It added a whole new layer to things. His body was practically going crazy with desire and all she was doing was lightly tracing a finger up and down his length.
"Always nice to not have clothing in the way," he suggested.
"O...ok..."
Clothes. He'd said clothes in the way weren't good. Well that made sense, given how HIS hands had found their way underneath her skirt. Chewing thoughtfully on her lip, fingers walked their way slowly to the top edge of his pants, fingertips curling under the material just slightly, tugging at it as if to test and see if they would slip inside.
Archer literally held his breath as Hotaru experimentally worked her hand into his pants. Her fingers were small enough that she could probably slip her hand in easily but she wouldn't be able to move much.
"Just... you can undo my pants if they get in the way," he told her. Archer would have just done it himself, but he didn't want the girl to think he was frustrated with her efforts, since nothing could be further from the truth.
With a slight nod, fingertips grasped metal and she tugged on the zipper, loosening the front of his hands and giving her plenty of room to slip fingertips beneath the waistband, seeking their destination, though she wasn't sure what she'd do when she got there.
As her fingers brushed along his length, Archer arched his back and moaned her name. His eyes were lightly closed as his breathing began to quicken, his body almost trembling with desire.
"That feels... very... good," he gasped.
His reactions proved to be at least some degree of encouragement as she let her flingers slide further, feeling, exploring, tracing over contours and shapes, nails lightly scraping against sensitive skin.
"It...it really does?"
Every touch sent a tremble through is body, like rocks dropped in a pond. Pleasure rippled through him and then drew back in towards her fingers as they touched back again.
"Mmmmm, very much so Hotaru," he said, his voice breathless. "You, have very good instincts."
Well, that was good, she assumed. Biting her lip again, she slid fingers further, curling them around him and sending the tips pattering along his skin as her grip tightened. She wasn't really sure how much was too much, it was obviously a sensitive spot -- she knew that not only from his reactions, but from her own work in the nurse's office -- and she didn't want to be too rough.
Archer's hips bucked upward as delicate fingers wrapped around his length. He was completely rigid in her hand, even the slightest movements she was making caused his body tremble with pleasure.
"Don't... please don't stop," he moaned. "Please..."
Hotaru didn't really know enough to work up a rhythm, instead just letting her fingers explore, wrapping around him and sliding along rigid flesh before letting go and dragging nails oh-so-gently across skin before tracing fingertips along angles and shapes.
"I...I won't..."
Archer had to admit that this was definitely a unique experience for him. It was very different, but not in a bad way. There were definitely benefits to having someone inexperienced do this. She seemed very innovative.
"It feels so good Hotaru," he said. "Y-your touch is like... electric velvet..."
Swallowing back her nervousness -- which was rapidly disappearing with his encouragement -- she thought back to moments before, when the roles had been reversed. It had...intensified things for her when he'd pressed harder, maybe the same was true for him? Only one way to find out. Wrapping slim fingers around him, she slid them along his length, squeezing slightly as she did.
"Oh god Hotaru," Archer growled. "That's so good..."
The increased pressure intensified what he was feeling tenfold. His body practically thrummed with pressure as the arousal he felt moments before while bringing her to orgasm was now being given an outlet.
"Start off slow," he told her. "Then go faster... like I did with you."
"Ok....."
Turning her attention back to him, she repeated the motion with her hand, squeezing gently as fingers slid along in an easy rhythm. On a whim, she leaned up to press lips to the hollow of his throat, tongue flicking out just slightly to taste his skin. Obviously, with a bit of guidance, she was feeling more daring.
As her tongue licked his skin Archer let out a primal growl, biting his lip to keep from making the noise louder than it already was. He reached up and threaded his fingers through her hair.
"You can grip a bit harder," he whimpered. "It already feels so good though Hotaru..."
Taking the growling whimper as a cue to keep going, she nibbled on his neck, mimicking his earlier actions towards her, fingers tightening fractionally as she did so. Shifting slightly, she let her hand move a little bit faster, speeding up the rhythm slightly.
"Like that?"
"H-hotoru," he moaned, voice full of need. For some reason it felt like she was going too fast, too slow, and just the right speed all at once.
Archer leaned his head back, eyes shut tightly as he gave her better access to his skin. It seemed that with every small bite she took his body was going to explode with pleasure, her teeth amplifying what was going on with her hand.
She kept going, letting her speed slowly increase, keeping her movements nice and even. Hotaru may not have had any experience in this, but she was a fast learner in regards to most things. Pulling back slightly, she leaned in again before she bit down hard on the juncture of his neck and shoulder, letting go to slide her tongue over the teeth marks.
Archer could feel himself approaching his climax as Hotaru's pace increased. His body was going wild with pleasure, as if every nerve ending was burning with ecstasy and was just waiting to be released.
"Close," he panted. "So close, please don't stop, please Hotaru..."
Nodding, she kept up with it, nibbling her way up to run her tongue along the edge of his earlobe, feeling the slight tremors through his frame.
It was pleasure almost to the point of pain as everything faded away except for Hotaru and what she was doing to him. His entire world became her hands and her lips. It was as if his entire body was concentrating on those two points to the exclusion of all else.
"Hotaru," he said breathlessly. "Hotaru, Hotaru, Hotaru..." he chanted, her name a mantra of pleasure.
And all at once it came, an explosion of pleasure radiating out from his hardness and washing over the rest of hs body. He cried out her name as his hips jerked up involuntarily and he felt himself throb in her hand.
"Hotaru..." he gasped.
She kept going, remembering how he had eased her down from that height, pressing mouth to his to swallow up his cries, other hand threading through sweat-damp white hair. After a moment, she pulled back to level violet gaze at him, cocking her head to the side.
"Was that...ok?"
Archer kissed Hotaru hungrily as she slowed down, his mind completely shutting down with all the pleasure it was experiencing. Once he was able to think again Archer swallowed and nodded, gasping for air.
"Oh god yes Hotaru," he moaned, eyes fluttering open. "It was amazing."
She smiled slightly, glad that for all her inexperience, she was apparently able to do things right. Pulling back her hand, she surveyed it quietly for a moment while her mind turned over what the proper course of action was. Remembering something she'd overheard in the locker room, she wrinkled up her nose slightly and licked her hand. They'd said it tasted good...
Archer panted and ran a hand through his hair, blinking his eyes as he tried to get his vision to stop being blurry. As he was able to see he watched as Hotaru tentatively reached up and licked her hand. Had he been able to, he would have warn her against it, but he was too surprised to say anything until it was too late.
"Ahh... Hotaru-chan," he stuttered. "You don't... you can just wash it off in the stream..."
She made a face, wrinkling up her nose even more. Obviously those other girls must have been on something, or else they completely didn't know what they were talking about.
"I don't think they know what they're talking about...."
Archer couldn't help but chuckle and shake his head. She was so naive and so trusting but at the same time she drove him wild with desire. It was something he could definitely get used to.
"It's, ahhh, there are..." Archer bit his lip in thought, trying to think how he could explain that everyone was different? Did he even need to? "You just don't need to do that Hotaru. Especially when there's water right by."
She felt her cheeks burn slightly, embarrassed at herself for not knowing something that was apparently common knowledge. But then, it wasn't as though the other girls had been very...considerate at the time. No, they had focused more on the laughing, the teasing, the questions about whether she was "even into boys". And trying to make her even more uncomfortable by giving her details on things she hadn’t wanted to know.
"Don't worry about it Hotaru you... you didn't have to do that and it was amazing," he said, then grinned at her. "You have very good instincts. I can't wait to see what you can do after some more experience."
As soon as the words left his mouth, Archer regretted saying them. Not because they were true but because how they might be misconstrued. That's not why he was in this relationship.
"I'm sorry Hotaru, I didn't... I didn't mean to imply you had, that we... I don't want to pressure you into anything," he said.
Her face fell at his words, turning away slightly and biting her lip. Oh....so that was the real reason behind everything? She was just....a way to get some action... She shook her head, not saying anything.
Archer frowned as he saw Hotaru's face fall. What had he said? He thought he was doing the right thing.
"H-hotaru?" he asked hesitantly, reaching up to tilt her chin so her violent eyes looked into his hard grey ones. "What's wrong? I don't understand..."
Dark eyes flickered away, refusing to look at him. She pulled her chin back, staring at the ground again.
"I....I do. I'm glad I was useful....I won't bother you anymore, since....since you got what you wanted..."
Archer stared at Hotaru, a shocked and confused look on his face. He knew that it was impossible to understand women but this was beyond that even. He thought he had made it clear...
"Hotaru, what are you talking about?" he said. "I... I didn't want this. I mean, I wanted it, but I wasn't going to ask for it. I only did that to you because... you put up with so much for liking me I wanted to give you something back. Hotaru I want to wait before we have sex. I want to wait until you're ready and you feel comfortable. I think you're worth waiting for..."
"I don't think so....I'm not worth anything...."
She didn't know what to think anymore. She wanted to believe him, but it was hard to, with years of bad experiences and the like as all she had to rely on in matters of trust.
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It hurt Archer more than he thought possible to hear Hotaru say that. More than anything he wanted her to know that wasn't true, that she was worth everything to him.
"Please, don't say that Hotaru," he pleaded, unable to hide the pain in his voice. "You are worth everything to me. All those people at school... I don't care what they think. I don't care what my old friends will say now that I'm dating you... I only care that we're together. I don't want you for sex, I want you for you. Because you're kind, you're smart, you're funny, you're beautiful... all those things and you don't even see it all..."
"I....you really think so?..."
She needed him to reassure her, to make her believe it. Wiping her hand on the grass, she hung her head, biting her lip.
"Hotaru, I know so," he said, leaning forward to cup his face in her hands, lifting it up so she was looking him in the eye.
"I've spent every day for the past year and a half wish I had the guts to tell you how I feel," Archer told her. "The more I saw you the more I wanted to be with you but the more I realized you deserved someone so much better than me..."
"Then...tell me now..."
Her voice was small; scared and unsure, quavering slightly with the words. She didn't know if he was really able to tell her or not, but at least...she needed something to cling to. If he really had felt like that, for so long...
Archer bit his lip, trying to figure out how to put into words feelings he didn't even understand. He didn't know if he could, but he could try.
"Hotaru I... I think about you all the time. When you talk to me I feel like I'm important, like I matter. When you touch me it's like my whole body feels it, like some sort of warmth travels through me. I used to wish that I was just a normal high schooler, because then you would like me and wouldn't think I was conceited or stupid or any of the things I am but hate about myself. I wanted to work every day to be a better person so that I could maybe, just maybe be somewhere close to being good enough for you..."
She swallowed past the lump in her throat, tears welling up in her eyes before she flung arms around his waist.
"I love you, Archer....."
Archer was completely caught off guard at the girl's confession. She had said it once before but he was hoping he would have more time to think over his response... but if all those things he had said before weren't love then what could be?
"I love you too Hotaru," he told her softly. "I think I have for a very long time."
She almost felt her heart skip a beat at hearing him say those words. Lower lip trembling, she buried her face in his chest, sniffling slightly.
"You...you really....really..."
Archer wrapped his arms around her and held her, not knowing what else to do. They crying was slightly unsettling, he wasn't sure if she was happy or sad or... what was going on.
"Yes, really," he said. "I love you Hotaru. I love you."
"I love you too....."
Tightening her arms, she nuzzled her face against his chest, finally relaxing. He loved her. He really loved her. That thought pushed everything else aside, all the nervousness and doubts and concerns.
Archer reached out and began to gently stroke her hair, running his fingers through the dark, silken strands. He could feel the tenseness in her muscles relax as she sank against him. It was a wonderful feeling except for one thing.
"Ahh, Hotaru? C-can you sit up for a moment so I can... put everything away and zip my pants back up?"
There was a moment's pause before she turned bright red and jerked away with an embarrassed yelp, looking anywhere BUT at him.
"S..s..sorry!"
Archer chuckled and smiled as he took a moment to tuck everything in and the zip up and button his pants. When he was done he wrapped an arm around her waist and pulled her back on to him, kissing her deeply.
"It's okay," he murmured against her lips. "It's a good problem to have."
Kissing him back, she let herself relax against him again, his arm around her waist a comforting feeling as she nodded.
"I...guess so."
Archer smiled and hugged her close, taking in the sensation of her tiny body fitting against his, remarking how well they can together. She was warm and soft against him, perhaps the most comforting feeling he had ever experienced.
"And thank you for that Hotaru, you didn't have to do that but... I'm glad you did. I have... reactions just thinking about you but actually be next to you. Well it was driving me wild."
She simply nodded, yawning slightly. Snuggling up against him, she let eyes flutter closed, comfortable to simply stay there like that.
Archer kissed the top of her head once more and closed his eyes as well. He couldn't think of a more perfect place than right here, falling asleep as he held Hotaru in his arms.