Anxiety floated within the middle of Tohru's stomach, a sick churning feeling that caused bile to rise within her throat. Swallowing nervously, she tried to quell the fear she felt, visibly struggling to stop the slight shaking she felt in her hands. Legs weak, she stared at the door that led into the hall, simply trying to breath.
She was going to meet with Akito, because the Sohma family god wanted to punish her. A thousand and one things raced through Tohru's mind, remembering a couple of the punishments her mom had described to her that happened in gangs and on the streets. They were enough to make her blood run cold. Akito was not part of a gang, but that didn't lessen the fear.
Kana-san…I-I remember what Momiji-kun told me happened when Hatori-san told him about Kana.
Hesitating, she stared at the door wide-eyed. Was something like that…going to happen to her? Throat tightening, her hand alighted onto the handle. Punishment…she had no idea what to expect, or know what he had in mind. If I don't go though…then something could happen to Kyou-kun.
Ashamed, feeling dirty, much like the 'whore' she knew Akito was calling her, Tohru felt tears prickle her eyes. It's my fault. What happened the day before, she would never have done at the moment if she had been within her right mind. Something she had always considered sacred...or supposed to be special…she hadn't even been within her right mind for. I'm such an i-idiot….I ruined everything! Scrubbing at the hot liquid that started to fall once more down her cheeks she held back a sob. She could still remember the things she'd felt last night, the intimacy shared between them, the feeling of being touched, and in turn touching him. Looking back though, everything…had been her. The bile rose once more.
I'M SORRY! M-Mom…if you're not completely ashamed of me…please…p-please help me. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry Mom. I didn't mean to. I wouldn't have…I love you. I'm really really sorry.
Scrubbing at her tears, she took a shaky breath before opening the door. It's my responsibility. There was no one else at blame, but herself. She knew that it was important that she face the consequences of her actions if anyone was to be in trouble for this. Kyou was someone she would never allow to be hurt because of her own doing. There really wasn't a choice in the matter.
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She was going to meet with Akito, because the Sohma family god wanted to punish her. A thousand and one things raced through Tohru's mind, remembering a couple of the punishments her mom had described to her that happened in gangs and on the streets. They were enough to make her blood run cold. Akito was not part of a gang, but that didn't lessen the fear.
Kana-san…I-I remember what Momiji-kun told me happened when Hatori-san told him about Kana.
Hesitating, she stared at the door wide-eyed. Was something like that…going to happen to her? Throat tightening, her hand alighted onto the handle. Punishment…she had no idea what to expect, or know what he had in mind. If I don't go though…then something could happen to Kyou-kun.
Ashamed, feeling dirty, much like the 'whore' she knew Akito was calling her, Tohru felt tears prickle her eyes. It's my fault. What happened the day before, she would never have done at the moment if she had been within her right mind. Something she had always considered sacred...or supposed to be special…she hadn't even been within her right mind for. I'm such an i-idiot….I ruined everything! Scrubbing at the hot liquid that started to fall once more down her cheeks she held back a sob. She could still remember the things she'd felt last night, the intimacy shared between them, the feeling of being touched, and in turn touching him. Looking back though, everything…had been her. The bile rose once more.
I'M SORRY! M-Mom…if you're not completely ashamed of me…please…p-please help me. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry Mom. I didn't mean to. I wouldn't have…I love you. I'm really really sorry.
Scrubbing at her tears, she took a shaky breath before opening the door. It's my responsibility. There was no one else at blame, but herself. She knew that it was important that she face the consequences of her actions if anyone was to be in trouble for this. Kyou was someone she would never allow to be hurt because of her own doing. There really wasn't a choice in the matter.
I'm going to protect Kyou-kun.