He wants to protest, to prove her wrong - or, say that yeah, he does. All he's done for the past few weeks back home is try. They got Boyd and Cora. That was a win. They got Aiden suspended. That was a more abstract, win the battle but not the war idea. But, then Derek confronted the alpha pack. And Scott couldn't take it. And then the motel. They won again, but at what price? Danny almost died because the darach is ten steps ahead of everyone. As did Deaton, his mentor. As impossible as it is to save everyone and do everything, Scott still tries. He feels he owes it to his friends, his family. Why else would he be like this?
He locks eyes with his mom before nodding, agreeing with her. He can't worry about back home - even though he does, every second. Something is going on with Lydia. He'd almost died himself. He didn't exactly share that information with his mother. But, even if anonymous and Tristero are lying, that means there won't be a way home any time, soon.
A way home unless whatever sends them back, does send Scott. But, he can't let that happen. He can't get here and then abandon everyone. He won't let the City take him. He will stay by sheer force of will.
He lets go of his mother's hand, reaching into his pocket for his device. He has to scroll. Everything can be accessed. Everything is public. He cues up the video. Standing, he takes a few steps away while she watches it in full. He knows he shouldn't feel guilty. He knows everything happening with Jackson and the Matt thing, even Stiles getting kidnapped isn't his fault because Gerard did that - but the rational side of him takes a vacation when guilt comes into play.
And then, she presses play and Stiles is drowning all over again. He's talking to Ms. Morrell. It has to be after Matt was drowned. Connecting the dots, it had to be Gerard considering he controlled Jackson at the end of the school year. Panic attack. He closes his eyes, looking away. What if it just gets worse? What if it's agony now and then it's just hell later on.
He opens his eyes.
For the first time, he's seeing something clearly. Survival. It's what they do. It's what they're trying to do, every day. Ms. Morrell gets that. She also sounds oddly stoic for a guidance counselor dealing with an overwhelmed student. There's something up with her. Allison said she was at the bank. She sounds like she knows what she's talking about. So, he's turning back.
Sorry to interrupt your heart breaking, mom.
"How much does someone need to study to become a guidance counselor?"
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He locks eyes with his mom before nodding, agreeing with her. He can't worry about back home - even though he does, every second. Something is going on with Lydia. He'd almost died himself. He didn't exactly share that information with his mother. But, even if anonymous and Tristero are lying, that means there won't be a way home any time, soon.
A way home unless whatever sends them back, does send Scott. But, he can't let that happen. He can't get here and then abandon everyone. He won't let the City take him. He will stay by sheer force of will.
He lets go of his mother's hand, reaching into his pocket for his device. He has to scroll. Everything can be accessed. Everything is public. He cues up the video. Standing, he takes a few steps away while she watches it in full. He knows he shouldn't feel guilty. He knows everything happening with Jackson and the Matt thing, even Stiles getting kidnapped isn't his fault because Gerard did that - but the rational side of him takes a vacation when guilt comes into play.
And then, she presses play and Stiles is drowning all over again. He's talking to Ms. Morrell. It has to be after Matt was drowned. Connecting the dots, it had to be Gerard considering he controlled Jackson at the end of the school year. Panic attack. He closes his eyes, looking away. What if it just gets worse? What if it's agony now and then it's just hell later on.
He opens his eyes.
For the first time, he's seeing something clearly. Survival. It's what they do. It's what they're trying to do, every day. Ms. Morrell gets that. She also sounds oddly stoic for a guidance counselor dealing with an overwhelmed student. There's something up with her. Allison said she was at the bank. She sounds like she knows what she's talking about. So, he's turning back.
Sorry to interrupt your heart breaking, mom.
"How much does someone need to study to become a guidance counselor?"