I don't blame you. [ a few years from now, she'll be able to understand such a sentiment from a very personal point of view. thankfully, she's not far enough along in her own respective timeline to talk about the various shades of possible kathryn janeways and how one of them was so dark, twisted, and bitter, she willingly broke a directive this kathryn's fought long and hard to uphold. ]

Yet, it's your face which casts an illusion of security -- whether it be false or not -- that makes being around him not as uncomfortable as it should be. It's uncomfortable for you, sure, but for Jim... Let's just hope that curiosity doesn't kill the cat.