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Log; Complete

When; Jan 14
Rating; PG (? I guess?)
Characters; Kaku (

maten_rou)
Summary; Kaku decides to make nice with the big bad wolf -- no more lies.
Log;

Kaku step up to the door of Jyabura's apartment. He brush off dirt from his shirt, trying to look a little more presentable. He'd been sleeping on the roof for the last few days, the bloodstains from his and Jyabura's scuffle still visible up there. He cup his hand over his newly grown ear, making sure the appendage was still in tact.

He raise his fist to the door, knocking lightly. He could have just walked in... but no. If Jyabura was still in a huff, he'd need to escape fast. Besides; it was just...polite. He needed to come clean with the wolf. No more lies... This City did things to him; it made him want to lie, cheat, cover himself... He shouldn't feel like that. Not around his family. Jyabura was his family.

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Jyabura had arrived back in his apartment just the day before, being totally overburdened by the curse with everyone's fears, by Robin's fear especially. He tried to clean up the mess at the apartment next door, where Kaku and he had fought, only to distract himself. And to make that weird feeling inside of him vanish, but it wouldn't go away.

The moment it knocked he was lying on the couch and taking a nap, still he instantly knew it was Kaku. And that he knocked was a good sign too - he had learned his lesson. Still, what Lucci had 'revealed' him didn't cheer him up.

"Not locked" he said as indifferent as possible, slowly getting up and leaning back into the sofa, still more lying than sitting.

Kaku cautiously open the door, peering around it. "... You're not gonna bite my nose off next, are you?" he asked, hiding behind the door. He came out slowly, entering the apartment, door clicking shut behind him.

"I... came to apologize to you, Jyabura; and this isn't one of those fake apologies I've been giving everyone else. I really mean this one..." the redhead remove his cap, holding it to his chest. "I never intend for any harm to come to Robin or your child. As much as I detest that woman... The child she carries is yours, and you are my brother. That means, she's my family. You don't do that to family."

Jyabura's expression swinged between annoyed and angry, but he looked also weary. Too much problems had occured the past few days. Problems of that kind that couldn't be solved by simply tearing them apart. He didn't really know how to handle that, as talking wasn't his exact specialty.

"So... you'd kill your 'sister' to see how your 'brother' would react to that? Your definition of family is rather interesting..." he replied bitter, getting straight to the point as Kaku did and revealing that he actually knew somehow what Kaku'd talked about with Lucci.

Kaku shook his head. "I wouldn't kill her. I know you found out about what Lucci and I talked about, but you should know by now, Jyabura, that what I tell Lucci and what I actually do are two very different things. I tell him what he wants to hear so I get what I want. I can't do that with you; you see through it a lot better than he does... And, I sort of like my ears."

Kaku step forward again, "I'm sorry, though, for what I've done. Just to prove that, I've avoided telling Lucci about our... conflict. As, we both know, if Lucci finds out you hurt me, he'd have no qualms with doing the same to Robin... He takes an eye for an eye -- and then the other for good measure."

When Kaku mentioned it, Jyabura saw that he had two ears again. He didn't wonder too much, a healer once patched up a frickin' hole in his chest. So, why shouldn't regrowing ears work too?

"So, you wouldn't kill her, but telling others to do so is ok?" he asked him with slight anger in his tone, too tired to get really angry, though. And too tired to think about what the hell Kaku wanted to accomplish with all this crap. "I don't think kitty loves you this much, kid. He's good at that sort of mindgames too. You better watch he doesn't fuck you over sometime. He'd do worse things to you than to bite you something off." he said, running a hand through his black hair and still not very assured by Kaku's words.

"Oh, I'm well aware that Rob doesn't love me," Kaku said. "But the fact is, I belong to him. I'm his property. He doesn't like when people damage what belongs to him," Kaku explained, folding his arms over his chest. "Posessive nature of a cat, afterall."

The redheaded agent move in closer, sitting on the armrest of the couch. "What I'm trying to say is, that no matter what I tell Rob to do, if it gets in his head that he really wants to do it, I have ways of distracting him. I can't garentee Robin's safety, but I can distract Rob long enough for you to keep her safe. Rob Lucci... is not as complex a beast as many think. He's driven by sex and violence. He uses me as an outlet for one or the other, if not both."

Kaku reach down, placing his hand on Jyabura's knee. "Jyabura, I'm sorry. There's no excuse for it really. I promise you, that I will not let Lucci harm Robin though. That's a vow I intend to keep, as well."

Disgusted he slapped away the boy's hand from his knee. "Cut that out! You're disgusting! That's just-, I have no words!" He sat a bit away from him, to the other side of the couch. "'Property', are you crazy?! Not even that, you degrade yourself to a fucking toy like that!" He knew what was going on between Kaku and Lucci, but he didn't want to hear any details of it. Nothing freaked him out more than that, but he also knew a discussion about that with Kaku was wasted time.

He crossed his arms and gave Kaku a sceptical look. "So? Interesting. How would you stop him from doing what he wants?" Naoto could. But Kaku?

"Please. How long have I known and worked with Lucci? He purrs when I touch him," Kaku said, a sharp glint in his eye. Kaku was, without a shadow of a doubt happy to be Lucci's toy. He knew it was terrible to degrade himself to such a level, but something about it... It made him feel warm inside, knowing the strongest of their group cared for him in such a roundabout sort of way.

"I've convinced him that we should kill Spandam just so he'd be the head of Cipher Pol. The day we planned for it, I convinced him otherwise. I wasn't brought into Cipher Pol as a fighter, Jyabura. I've been taught how to lie and manipulate people since the day I was born..."

Kaku brought his knees up to his chest, wrapping his arms around them, resting his chin atop them. "I can't lie to you though. It's too hard. You have too good a heart for me to lie; I feel bad whenever I do it. Guess you're like my conscience... Whcih is why, I'm actually apologizing. Rambling a lot, but apologizing nonetheless."

Jyabura hated Lucci too much to fully understand what Kaku meant. Sure, making other people do whatever one told them was awesome. But he prefered doing this by clear and simple orders, no manipulating around. It was against his nature to even think of acting towards the cat. He knew very well Lucci was stronger than him, but that was never a good enough reason to treat him like his boss, which he technically was. Oh hell no. It was reason to do the complete opposite.

He looked at Kaku thoughtfully, for the split of a second the idea of killing Spandam seemed like the best in the universe. But the second sentence took his full attention. "Yeah, I know that. I'm more the guy to cause a bloody mess without asking questions. That's why I had to stay at Water 7." He'd be probably incapable of betraying people he had worked with for five years.

For a while he said nothing, caught once more in a moment of awkward silence. He started to hate these. "I'd really like to believe you. But you're an excellent liar, after all..." he teased him, still not sure what to think about all that.

Kaku look over to Jyabura, a bit of a smile on his lips. "Do you want to eat my other ear?" he asked, reaching over to play a bit with Jyabura's hair.

"Would you let me this time?" he asked back, not really expecting an answer. He grabbed Kaku by his wrist, squeezed it a bit too hard for the split of a second. "Usually I just take what I want. You probably learned this by now."

He let his wrist go and leaned back. "Can I ask you a question?"

Kaku rub his wrist a little, looking to the agent. "You can ask me anything, Jyabura."

"I dislike how you do it, but messing around with the cat is something I just have to approve of, but that healer girl..." he started, scratching over the fresh scar on his face he got from Kaku, "just... why? Why do you lie to her?" he asked with sincere curiosity.

Kaku was silent a moment, a pensive expression painted across his face. "I know my lies are terrible, and I shouldn't be bringing them upon her... But sometimes, the lie a bit more attractive than the truth. I'm fond of her, Jyabura. I'd rather her know a fabrication of me, leaving out important details, then to have her know the truth, that I'm two-faced and will never change." He shifted his position a bit, getting more comfortable.

"Something... about lying to her; it doesn't seem like a lie. I'm telling her a story. I'm a story-teller, Jyabura... I create a lie to shield people from the kind of truth they should not have to see. Like you, she is a good person... But your heart has experienced things hers hasn't. She may be a Shinigami, but I can tell, death scares her. I'd rather her not be burdened with the thought of how bloodstained my hands are. I tell myself I'm lying to her just so I'll have someone who trusts in me and would defend my freedom until the end... But in truth, in all sincerity, I want to protect her from my reality. She's not from our world, Jyabura; and the world you and I are from. Ordinary men, they couldn't handle what we do. Isane isn't human, she was once, but... I don't think she can fully comprehend our line of work. She's can't comprehend the reasons... She's not like us, and I never want for her to be. "

Kaku move again, now sitting on the sofa next to Jyabura. "Jyabura, if you had the chance to start life anew... Wouldn't you? Wouldn't you shield the people you met from the truths of your past? Omit details, not let the world know that you are a murderer? To let people see you as something different, something... Something you wished you could have been. I'd rather Isane see me for who I want to be, not who I really am... It's not that I'm weak, it's not that I'm going soft... I just know a good heart when I see it. I can't bring a good heart down to my level."

"What noble reasons to do something so dishonorable" he said thoughtfully, but not being angry or to degrade Kaku. It was just the fact, and it was the truth.

"Actually..." he started to mumble, feeling to urge to drink some sake, something bitter that would help him sorting his thoughts, "...actually I've always been proud of what I am. Working for the government. Killing. Absolute justice and all that." He got up and fetched a bottle of sake from somewhere under the table, sat back and opened it. "It was protecting the weak by killing the bad guys, nothing wrong 'bout that, but surely a bit... extreme." He took a long drink out of the bottle. "No, I have no problems with being a murderer as long as I pretend we always killed the bad guys." With the backside of his hand he run over his mouth and offered the bottle to Kaku without looking at him.

"I can still understand what you mean. You say I'm a good person. But you know I can turn into the opposite, it's my profession. I don't... want her to see that." Quickly he just took back the bottle to take another drink. Silence. "It's idiotic, because out of all people she knows best. I just wish she'd see more in me than an assassin. Or rather, something different."

He looked at Kaku and never felt so terribly weak, he probably never was that weak and vulnerable. Once more he handed him over the bottle. "I know how you feel" he added, never thinking he could have ever agreed on Kaku's reasons to lie.

Kaku took a swig from the sake bottle, handing it back to Jyabura. "I'm glad you do..." he said, as he closed his eyes. "You're really the only one I think who does..."

Kaku lean his head a bit against Jyabura's shoulder. "You're the only one who knows what I'm really like. You don't degrade me like the others, when I let you glance in on the man behind the masks. I thank you, for that, Jyabura."

"Whatever" he said to tease Kaku. "It's so easy. You play nice with me, and I'll play nice with you. But I'm sure I beat that in your head well enough." he grinned.

Jyabura took another drink, finally calming down and becoming less nervous. The medicine did it's purpose. "That City will always try to make you feel miserable. No need we try to do that to each other too." He leaned back and pushed him away from the couch with his foot, but carefully. "Now get the hell away from my couch. I'm tired."

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