LOG; ongoing

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

When; January 26
Rating; PG-13, might go up
Characters; Jyabura [maten_rou] & Nico Robin [blackhibiscus]
Summary; Happy happy curse is over and things go back to their usual, angsty state. Whoopie?
Log;
Even though Robin definitely preferred being happy over being sad, she didn't like the curse of the day before at all. She had been a bit too happy, and too happy usually meant vulnerable.

She was amazed that she was still alive, since she didn't dare to go outside again even while in the company of someone -- it disgusted her that her nemesis had gotten what he wanted. Robin knew that she was scared out of her mind but she still refused to admit this after all the struggle she'd given to keep on living. She didn't want to live her life constantly worrying about a surprise attack anymore; 20 years had been enough. But now, it was happening again and her own fear was making her sick, even though she couldn't help it. She wanted nothing more than being able to go outside carelessly but instead, she was stuck in her shared apartment which she didn't mind, really. It was the feeling of being in the same cage as before that drove her insane.

So she sat on the couch with her knees pulled up to her chest, some gossip magazine she had picked up somewhere in front of her while she was sulking more than she was reading.

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[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

Following an extraordinary happy and careless Robin around through the whole City was exhausting in a special way. Still, he knew that this would only have a more saddening effect on her the day after and her normal state was usually sad enough. That was the reason why Jyabura couldn't really enjoy that curse as a whole. A curse still meant screwing around with people's minds and it the curse itself wasn't really bad, the aftermath would be.

He sat next to her on the couch and watched her being depressed again and couldn't come up with a single useful thing to say. If Robin decided to be sad, it was quite impossible to change her mood. "I never got what's so great about reading. I'd rather watch you jumping through the zoo like a rubber ball again instead" he said with a smirk and leaned back.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"I don't really 'get' what's so great about this magazine that I'm reading it," she said with a thoughtful expression, while she tossed the thing off the couch. If depression was starting to make her read ridiculous articles, she was really losing her mind. She shook her head for a moment and chuckled.

"You think so? I wouldn't think that seeing me explode from happiness just because a flamingo was staring at me is very entertaining. I'd rather call it obnoxious," she said, staring at her feet with an enigmatic smile; even though she had been acting rather stupid, she liked the happy memories since she didn't have too many of those. At least curse days were good for something.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

"Like you'd need those mags with all the stuff going around lately" he smirked and was inwardly extremely happy to not be involved in any of the current dramas of the City. Which didn't hold him back from being absurdely amused by all of it.

He moved over to Robin and thoughtfully ran a hand through the woman's hair. Well, of course he was happy that she was happy. It just bothered him that out of all possibilities a curse had made her feel the way he tried to reach since weeks with effort. The whole incident with the fucking cat and making her cry a few days ago weren't factors to lighten up his mood either. In fact he was relatively quiet and overly thoughtful the past few days, downright bothered to say the wrong thing and hurt Robin again.

"Silly, it was entertaining!" he said a bit too amused and stroked her cheek with the back of his hand. "And I'd rather call it cute" he added and leaned forward to give her a kiss.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"That's the first time someone used the adjective 'cute' to describe me," she said in full honesty, since it really was the first time. Common used adjectives were digusting, filthy, lovely, beautiful and so on. Nami was cute. Chopper was cute. Luffy was cute. Nico Robin wasn't. And now there was someone saying she was, and someone she cared a lot about at that. It brightened her mood a lot.

She moved a little and resumed to lean against him with a serene smile, her legs curled up against her. "Well, then I hope it's okay to call you cute, too."

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

"It was about damn time then" he said while embracing her, relieved to see her in a cuddly mood. "But I actually can understand why people would avoid to call you that." he said with a knowing smile. Robin had probably no idea that she looked a bit dangerous. In that charming, lady-like way.

"I bet you don't wonder that this is my first time too someone called me that" he said after he gave her a well, sceptical look. Assassins shouldn't be cute to begin with and the words people used to describe him were usually the furthest away from cute.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"Really now? Do tell," Robin teased, only knowing vaguely what he was aiming at. She was aware that she could seem quite... intimidating to people, but she didn't think that she looked overly aggressive or something like that. At least, that's what she tried not to be after all the boycotting the World Government was responsible for.

"No, that isn't a surprise. What should I call you then? Dangerous?" she said, closing her eyes and stretching her legs for a moment before making a pillow out of his chest.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

"Well, you're smart and without a doubt pretty. That's a very... intimidating mixture on a girl" he smirked, brushed aside her hair a bit and started to carefully bite along her neck, which seemed to be one of his favourite body parts of Robin. But only one of many.

"If you really think so?" he said and stroked her sides with both of his hands. That would be a word he's definitely more used to and well, it was a compliment of some sort. "Actually I prefer that a lot over cute." He bit along her neck again, up to hear ear. "Robin, when you're with me... you do feel safe, do you?" he asked her suddenly, still feeling guilty for the incidents of the last days.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"So men want dumb, pretty girls since they're not used to intelligence?" she mused aloud, staring at the ceiling and frowning a bit. Well, maybe that was actually true; men with power, at least, wanted their women stupid but beautiful and she never saw the logic in that.

"No. I don't feel safe," she said solemnly, sighing and tearing her eyes away from the ceiling to look at his face. "Because I know that there's someone who wants to kill me who's stronger than you are. The only one I feel safe with right now is Luffy. I'm sorry." Maybe she would never feel safe with anyone else besides her captain.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

He could have taken her first sentence as a joke, as a pretty bad joke though, but her second definitely wasn't. And if it was supposed to be funny, it didn't reach its aim. By far.

When she looked into his face, he quickly looked away. She didn't have to see how much that offended and hurt him. For a while he said nothing because he simply had no idea what to reply. How revealing and refreshing, really.

"Hm, fine" he said finally and shrugged. He really wasn't in the mood for any bickering which would possibly ensue and just looked at the floor.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

Robin knew that she had ruined the mood rather abruptly with that remark but she couldn't lie about things like that, even if she knew that it could hurt his feelings immensely. But he wasn't Luffy and as long as he wasn't stronger than Lucci, she just couldn't feel safe with him, even if she wanted to.

"I'm so sorry," she sighed and she sat up, while picking her magazine up from the floor again to distract herself. She started to feel rather depressed again; she blamed her constant mood swings on her pregnancy and hoped that it'd be over soon.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

When was the last time he was that angry?

He got up too and walked to the window, staring out of it into the direction of the forest. Killing some of those animals would be the right thing now. Just tearing something apart to release all the feelings. Fuck this talking, really, it never worked out. Killing did, effectively.

"Oh yeah?" he said while fetching a bottle of sake from under the table and walked back to the window slowly. "I don't think so" he added, opened the bottle and took some sips.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"That's alright," she said calmly, her eyes not leaving some bad article about perfume. "I'm used to being doubted."

She crossed her legs and tried to concentrate on reading instead of bickering, but she was horribly failing. Why did every negative thing she said have to turn out into another fight? Was she just that shallow or was he being overly sensitive? She didn't know who was at fault her, and frankly, she didn't even want to know.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

An annoyed sigh was his only response to that. He didn't know if that was only her or those ominous mood swings he heard about. In fact he didn't care because it was both just fucking annoying and offensive. It would take worse to make him start up some arguing, he had resigned on that topic already.

"I'm going out tonight" he said and took some more sips before putting the bottle on the windowsill. Carefully he ran his hand over the wound in his neck. It would be too early for hunting, but he couldn't care less now.

[blackhibiscus.livejournal.com]

"Please bring some milk if you happen to walk past a store, we've run out," she said gently, already feeling like the housewife she dreaded to become. She turned a page and stared blankly at an advertisement, thinking that he probably wouldn't be back until somewhere deep in the night. She didn't really care since she preferred being alone now. She almost felt guilty for feeling that way; even guiltier when she realized she missed her nakama and that she really wanted to be with them right now.

[maten-rou.livejournal.com]

"And you please start acting your age already" he replied unimpressed, because he expected something like that. How sad he wasn't surprised by this.

He'd went to the bathroom to take care of his wound before the hunt would make it even worse. "You know, this is no cage. Nobody put you on any chains." Silence while he put on new bandages and his jacket back on. "I'd usually escort you back to your pirates right now, but if you don't feel safe with me, you won't feel any different without me" he shrugged and turned around to leave the apartment.

"You're not the only one who has to make sacrifices" he said hardly audible and closed the door behind him.