tampered | Closed rp

When; January 21
Rating; PG
Characters; Alois Trancy

ronderotarel and Ciel Phantomhive

eidoloncast
Summary; Alois found out Claude wants to kill him, and is in need of some support.
Log;

[He'd been unable to fall asleep. Not even Luca's presence had comforted him. Behind closed eyelids, he kept seeing Claude's glare. Those cold golden eyes staring at him as if he were nothing more than a pile of dung.
It's been only one day, yet to Alois it feels as if it had been an eternity. Claude had undressed him and put him into his nightgown, but Alois had been unable to enjoy the shower of attention. Not when Claude's every single movement was so full of contempt. He'd been afraid, even. He'd feared those hands would clasp around his throat and just snap his neck in two. His main concern was that Luca would walk in and witness his death.

By midnight, Alois is so agitated he climbs out of the bed, fearing that his nervous trembling will wake his brother. The dark corridors have never seemed scarier and more ominous as he slowly makes his way to Ciel's bedroom. He slides in the room, silent as a cat, and climbs onto the bed. He knows Ciel, being a demon, probably already sensed his presence, so he gets straight to the point.

He wraps his arms around Ciel's tiny shape and whispers in his ear.]

I need to ask you something.

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[Why does it have to scare him so much? Why is Alois so intent on this? Why does he keep pushing and pushing him to accept it when he is incapable of fully accepting touching anyone but Sebastian? He doesn't trust them. He can't trust anyone not to hurt him.

He's afraid. But he's not admitting to his fear. He turns his face and puts his hands in between his and Alois's so his lips won't connect again and presses gently to try and make him stop. He's realizing he can't be as forceful as he wants or he'll hurt him. Then the anger sets in.]

I told you not to do that! Why can't you just take 'no' for an answer?! You can be close to me without this being a factor! Or are you too stupid to see that?!

And why can't it be a factor? [He himself doesn't know why he needs it. Maybe it's his need for physical affection, maybe it's his loneliness, maybe it's his hormones-- maybe it's all of these things put together. If he could, he'd climb inside Ciel's every skin cell, just to see the proof that there's a sparkle of his own self inside of him, that he really was the one who made him so perfect

He's kissing the hand that is trying to stop him.] I'd never do anything that could hurt you, Ciel. And if you won't pay your debt by making a contract with me, will you accept to pay it by having faith in me? [And now his lips are on Ciel's neck. He's imagining what it must feel like for Sebastian to want to suck a soul out of this tiny body, but he'd rather not think about Sebastian right now.]

B-Because!

[He's struggling now, he can't seem to accept that this is happening but his struggle is childlike, he feels like he's going to get injured somehow despite what he's become now. He shoves him harder, he wants to slap him, he wants to hit him over and over and it's beginning to get to a point where he will eventually have very little self restraint soon.

He can't think. He feels dizzy. His cheeks flush, his heart remembers to beat, his lungs remember to fill with air. He feels like he's drowning and he can't swim against the the current.]

S-Stop it! Alois!

[Alois notices Ciel's panic. It makes him nearly panic too, because the last thing he wants is for Ciel to be afraid of him.

That's why he stops kissing his neck, and simply hugs him tightly, hiding his face in Ciel's hair.] I stopped. See? [He shifts a bit against him, and places one last kiss on Ciel's temple.] We can go back to sleep now. [Yes, he plans to sleep like this.]

Edited 2012-01-22 01:46 (UTC)

[He stills and then moves to shove Alois right out of the fucking bed. He feels humiliated, furious, upset, like he did when he was a small powerless child.

And he's never going to let ANYONE make him feel that way again!]

Get. OUT!

[and he's about to cry now. He thought coming to see Ciel would have made him feel better. He thought it would've made him feel less abandoned than he does each time Claude glares at him. But it seems he's not any more welcome here than he is in his butler's room.] Don't reject me like that, Ciel. Not you too. I'll do anything you want, but don't treat me like that. [Sometimes he wonders why is it so incredibly hard to obtain affection. He wonders why the villagers hated him, why Claude never cared for him, and why Ciel doesn't seem to either. He can't help but wonder what is so disgusting about his own self that makes people want to stay away from him.]

[It's starting to get on his nerves- and what's worse is he feels a little guilty for doing that so harshly. It might be emotional manipulation but he's too tired to do anything about it now.]

Fine. I won't throw you out of my bed again. Just stop trying to... to kiss me.

[He swallows. Ciel's annoyed tone tells him that throwing a fit won't lead him very far right now. So he puts a smile back on his face. He's known Ciel for quite a while now, and he knows how much he hates not being in control. That's why he came up with an idea.] Tell me one thing. You don't like it when people kiss you, I get that. But would it feel better if you were the one kissing me? [His mood has very suddenly changed, and now he wants to play. He comes sitting next to Ciel on the bed once again (because, after all, Ciel just said he wouldn't kick him out again).] Try it! It's a game. Kiss right here. [And he pokes his own cheek.]

[Alois's mood can change in an instant... how bipolar does he have to be? He makes an irritated sound, shifting to roll over so he doesn't have to look at him.]

Shutup. Stop saying stupid things. As if I'd play a game like that.

[He pouts, even though he did not honestly expect Ciel to give in so easily. Now Ciel has his back turned to him, so Alois wraps his arms around him from behind.] Can I sleep with you tonight? I'll wake Luca up if I go back to our room. Also I'm too tired to walk. [He rubs his cheek against the back of Ciel's had. For some reason, he's always thought demons should be cold at the touch. Instead Ciel feels so incredibly warm.

There might be a tiny part of him that really really wants Sebastian to come wake Ciel up in the morning, only to find them asleep in the same bed and so close together.

He's quite tired now. He feels like he could fall asleep really easily, all snuggled against Ciel like this.] Please? I promise I'll stay still. [He yawns as he speaks.]

Edited 2012-01-23 03:39 (UTC)

[He's still far too flustered to think clearly. He doesn't want Alois in his room - but he doesn't think he'll hear the end of it tomorrow if he doesn't let him stay. He does his best to pry him off and growls a little.]

You can stay if you stop touching me.

[His tone of voice is damn near venomous.]

[It's probably Ciel's venomous tone that makes Alois' droziness disappear instantly. Suddenly he's wide awake, and quite in the mood to growl as well.] Don't worry, I'll just hug you from behind. So you can pretend it's Sebastian hugging you instead. [And his voice is pure venom this time. Jealousy was never something he dealt with gracefully.]

Get out of my room. I am telling you now -- if you don't remove yourself I'll remove you myself.

[He really is exhausted and would like to simply go back to sleep. You're making this impossible.]

[Of course he doesn't plan to go anywhere. He turns his back to Ciel and starts crying silently. Because he knows Ciel wouldn't have been this upset if Alois hadn't touched some hidden truth with his words.]

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