http://knightbalanced.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] knightbalanced.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] tampered2008-09-10 11:33 pm

ongoing;

When; The afternoon of September 11th
Rating; PG?
Characters; Luke ([livejournal.com profile] knightbalanced) and Padmé ([livejournal.com profile] godsavethequeen)
Summary; You can't hide from your mom.
Log;

Luke really didn’t like to run away from things – especially when they were things concerning him acting like a child. But he’d needed a minute to collect himself when he realized Padmé – his mother - had returned.

A sigh, and he ran his left hand through his hair. It was getting long – soon he’d look even more like Anakin.

Anakin.

Why wasn’t Anakin here? Luke shoved a book back into its place, perhaps a little roughly, thoughts rolling like stormclouds in his mind. He didn’t want to go through this again. He didn’t want to have this wrench his heart again. He didn’t want the others to see him go through this again, either. Leia… he closed his eyes. Leia had parents. How must she feel, knowing the people she’d loved all her life hadn’t been biologically hers? He was being selfish, and he was a little ashamed of himself.

For now, he’d sit at work – early – and sort books. He needed something to take his mind off everything, so that he could get himself back together. Here, at least, he could be alone.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 07:07 am (UTC)(link)
Eying the library with a slight misgiving, Padmé removed the hood of her cloak, the fabric slipping back on her shoulders as she entered the building. After her initial experience in the City she had been as quick as she could about learning as much as possible, about the people, about the government or lack thereof, about the law and its enforcers, and so on. If she was to be stuck here she could at the very least, be informed. That much she had decided before anything else.

She stepped further in, looking around her in carefully handled interest and awe. Everything was different here.

Anakin wasn't here. Obi-wan had said as much.

But apparently there was someone who worked here, at the library, with that same surname. A Luke Skywalker. Naturally, she had come to investigate.

Was this someone from Anakin's future? His past maybe?

Or was it just a weird quirk of the Universe, throwing her a wild card with no relation at all? The only hair she had picked up on was the name factor.

Hands clasping in front of her, she walked through the stacks, eyebrow arching at some of the books, either because the titles were strange or the words completely foreign, or presumably, both.

It took her a while before she found anyone, his face turned away from her.

Clearing her throat so as to alert him before she actually spoke, out of courtesy, she paused.

"Excuse me, but if you have a moment, I'm looking for someone...I was hoping you could help me," she said in a simultaneously yielding and deliberate tone of voice.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
Her impulse reaction was actually a combination of things. Her tentative look went from that of patience to mild alarm, and then confusion, and then uncertainty as she took a step forward, a slight one admittedly. Was he alright? Had she startled him after all?

Then she looked at him clearly, her own moment of worry passing for him, and she paused, mouth open, ready to ask if he knew this 'Luke Skywalker' and where to find him.

Anakin.

She thought it, even if she didn't say it even as she blinked, bowing her head briefly to settle her mind.

One hand raised as she brushed some hair behind her ear, gaze moving up to meet his again, calmly, boldly, though not rude.

"Thank you. I am sorry if I surprised you," she paused here before continuing, "But I am looking for a young man named Luke Skywalker. He works here, reportedly, though I'm new here and my sources may or may not be what they seem to be." For a few long moments, she said nothing after that, simply looking at him unabashedly, scrutinizing. The similarities, she did not imagine them there in this bad lighting. They were plain, obvious even, especially to her. Surely Obi-wan had noticed?

And it occurred to her not for the first time that people who knew her here knew a few other things too, ones they were not telling her for whatever reasons. Though not exactly pleased with this, she could not immediately fault them for it either without knowing more about it.

Still, she was willing to go out on a limb, so to speak, and it wasn't much of one besides. The physical likeness. The name. It had to be him and he, apparently, had to be related to Anakin.

With a slight inclination of her head, she added, "Or perhaps I am speaking to him now?" If for some bizarre reason she was wrong, he seemed the sort to forgive a misunderstanding from her impression of him, brief, if distinct.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
At his answer, she nodded approvingly. To lie would have been unwise and unfair to both of them. Pausing, she swallowed a sigh as she offered him a half smile, and a sort of sheepish one at that. Here was the part she knew would be awkward before she even left her apartment.

"I realize you are working," she began, pausing, unclasping her hands, letting them fall to her sides. "But at your convenience, I was hoping you might walk with me a while. We are, it seems, not only from the same world, but linked by a common contact, one, Ana----"and she stopped quite suddenly, some flash of her own mistake showing on her face as she quickly followed that up with, "Knight Skywalker." She kept from biting her lip, a conscious effort as she held her head level, though not high while making such a strange request.

What other questions she had could be answered best in this way though, through time spent together as opposed to a questionable circle game of Q and A. But as she was in most ways, as she knew it, a stranger, she had no little confusion about how weird this must seem, not even forward so much as it was uncalled for probably. Her eyes never left him, bordering on being rude, but she tried to keep it a distant look, not too invested or prying, even though the truth was that she was curious, was in a way prying.

Also though, she simply wanted to seek someone out and rather than it being someone completely random, this name having passed under her notice seemed to call her out. So she followed it here, or rather, tracked the source. It was too late to take it back, not that she would, given the chance. She wasn't the sort to take actions she would rather take back an hour later if she could help it.

"Do you know me, Luke Skywalker?" she asked at last, a thought occurring to her that maybe this was the reason for his evident shiftiness. Did she make him uncomfortable? Or was this how he always was? If her expression changed, it was only to lighten slightly, as if to take some edge off of whatever she supposed might be making him squeamish.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 09:28 am (UTC)(link)
So he did not know her from their world. Interesting, was her first feeling on it. Odd, was her second. Why, was her third, but 'why' was a common theme since her arrival here and surprised her the least of all of her own reactions. Tilting her head at him, she blinked, still a little thrown off by the resemblance, though not in a bad way. Lest she judge him too much simply for that, she then looked away, focusing on the shelf of books nearest to her eye level. There was definitely the tone of someone, not necessarily in his voice, but something about this that signaled upset to her, some level of unrest. Rather than ask him how he knew Anakin, she waited before speaking again, choosing her words ever carefully.

"Where is home for you, here, Luke?" she asked, turning slightly to peer at him again, though nothing so direct as the forward stares she had been giving him previously.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 10:02 am (UTC)(link)
Whomever that was? She arched a brow at that, turning fully towards him again, small amusement given away by the upward quirk of her lips. What did that mean? Did this place also attract alternate versions of people, she wondered. Would it be so different than aged versions, or cursed ones in which volitions and motivations were changed? Not so different as to being impossible, she mused.

"Falcon," she tested the name and then, "A strong name for a ship." Not yet walking anywhere, it occurred to Padmé that Luke spoke with a palpable wariness, or perhaps that wasn't the word, more like, uncertainty, when he mentioned Anakin, and she wondered at it though she did not comment. Something in her felt sad each time his name was spoken, but at the same time, proud, strong, even. And she had no reason to in the immediate sense, so she chalked it up to love and loyalty, as simple and long-reaching as those two things were.

But something did bother her, and rather obviously so.

"I did not," she repeated with no small amount of confusion. "I see," she said more quietly and then, "I thank you for taking the time to speak with me. You were under no obligation to and I am aware how strange this must seem to anyone, a stranger seeking you out, well not a complete one but you gather my meaning." That said, she did sigh now a bit, shrugging at him, a far less guarded gesture than she had so far given him.

"Obi-wan no doubt let you know," she paused, her expression again carefully softer, just degrees so but apparent, "He will be staying in my company for a while, at least, if that is not trouble to you for him to do so." She walked, moving in Luke's direction, stopping a little short of him. It was not just a courtesy. If for some reason they needed Obi-wan with them, she could either request lodging there as well or seek some other form of protection, and that last one more for the Jedi's peace of mind than her own.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
That last bit earned a laugh from her and her smile became something more akin to a broad grin, something that more clearly told of her youth and shed the somewhat restricted decorum of a diplomatic stranger.

"I can see how he might feel that way," she said. "Not in regards to you or yours," she clarified, composing herself again. "More that I knew him once at this stage in his life and he was...is very serious," she affirmed, but not in a critical way, just matter-of-fact. Her grin lessening, expression going pensive again, she studied him in a once-over, always coming back to his face.

There was something deeply honorable there, burdened, but strong, and, she suspected, some level of hurt, though where she drew that from was only intuition's best guess. Of course, being able to read people was, in a sense, part of her job. That she employed it outside of the Senate was almost strictly habitual. Catching herself, she tried to just look at him rather than examine.

Something in his eyes though, and his smile, made her both happy and sad for him at the same time. It hardly made sense. She had just met him, but there it was, just a feeling. It prompted her to reach out to him, but she stopped short, realizing not only the forwardness but also the fact that she did not know what she intended to do here. Pat him on the shoulder like a child? Tell him whatever concerned him could be resolved? To not worry?

Step back, she told herself and she did, letting her hand drop as inconspicuously to her side as possible, offering an apologetic look.

"Don't say that. You don't have to be sorry for any of that, Luke, truly," she said, voice far from loud but steady, an undertone of regal command she would never quite rid herself of. "Your likeness is not something you chose, I imagine, and as for my," she faltered briefly, "Companionship with Anakin, if that was anyone's fault, it was mine or his. Your apology is sweet, but not necessary as you did nothing wrong from what I can tell." The note on Anakin and herself bothered her, and perhaps a split second of that turmoil showed through but just as quickly she tried to mask it. If Anakin was not even present anymore, it was hardly something for her to agonize or worry over if she could help it.

Right now was not about Anakin really, anyway, though he was what had brought her here, his name at least. It was now, quite suddenly, about this Luke Skywalker and Padmé's own somewhat insatiable curiosity for people who intrigued her, and a gnawing feeling of something more that she could not quite put her finger on.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-11 05:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"I would," was her simple reply, accompanied by the proffering of her hand, which she placed smoothly into Luke's outstretched one. Her fluctuating misgivings about coming here seemed to ease in favor of being replaced completely by a careful and deep interest. She kept step with him easily but in that same way she almost always traveled from one place to another: quiet, but aware, peaceful but hopefully strong. Or this was the person she so often hoped to serve her people as, at least. The key difference was the ever present and gentle upward curve of her mouth now. Something merely about being in his presence gave her a familiar sense of things, not entirely unlike Anakin himself, which once again led her to wonder how they were related, but she did not ask that.

Instead, hand adjusting carefully in his own, Padmé turned her head to glance up at him again, giving Luke a curious stare as she was prone to do when intrigued in a pleasant way. "You said you have a sister," she prompted, her voice some mix of soft and strong.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 05:10 am (UTC)(link)
"I thought that might be the case," she said, and while she wasn't exactly smug about it, there was something about being right in guessing Leia was the sister he spoke of before he named her that gave Padmé a sense of satisfaction. By most rights, it was a childish pleasure at having won a secret game or the like, but for whatever reason, she still took heart in it, for whatever it was worth.

"This City is strange and yet, not so unbelievable as I expected it to be," she commented, not idly, but with a conversational air. "I feel fortunate, all strangeness aside, that there are others of the world I am familiar with," she continued, taking looks at Luke as she spoke that she interspersed with surveying their surroundings as they walked. Part of her felt badly, when she stole those glances, for all her intense curiosity and how much of it was or was not because of Anakin who was not even present.

But the resemblance was difficult to ignore, even without looking at him. Though the differences between them varied from stark and clear to ambiguous and interchangeable, the similarities also had their places, serving to slightly muddle her senses. Still, it was a simple enough--not to be confused with 'easy'--matter to focus on the basic task of walking, and her surface queries.

"Are you a Jedi, then?" she asked, one of the primary questions that she had debated long enough whether or not to ask. It was something she would find out eventually, she had reasoned, so why not now? With the honest, a straightforward approach was, at the very least, sensible. To this, she also presumed to know the answer but it was usually best to ask the subject, if possible. Eyes wholly on him again, her smile was careful but clear.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
She mused on his statement for a while, eyes forward as she did so. That was something different, though something she would not completely fail to expect, especially if things continued to fall apart as they seemed to be doing back home.

Her eyes closed briefly as she pushed those thoughts away. She could do nothing for anyone back there while here.

In some ways, she thought of what he told her as brave and admirable, In other ways, it unsettled her. Did The Council no longer merit that say it staked in a person such as Luke's life? Or was this more personal? Was it something else entirely?

"If that's what is best for you, in whatever time you've been taken from, I can say I admire the sort of strength it takes to be willing to go against any organized body of power," she said at last. "And possibly, a bit of foolishness," she finished, though quieter, traces of good humor there, almost as if addressing an inside joke.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
"I am, though it's only been a day, less even, adjusting here has not been unlike adjusting elsewhere," she said. "Point of fact, it is possibly easier as my duties here are not the same." The truth was that in some ways, left without her usual responsibilities, she felt a little more unsure of herself than she was accustomed to. Uprooted, might be another word. Yet she had arrived her unharmed, found almost immediate allies and assistance. Could she justify complaint? The answer was a plain and simple 'no' and she knew it. Keeping such thoughts to herself, she maintained a level composure on the outside front.

"It will take me a while longer to completely adjust of course but with the help offered so far, I doubt it could be made much easier than it has already been," she said with a note of gratitude there.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"Fortunate," she remarked on the note of war, but said nothing else. It would be audible dwelling then and while she already found herself trusting Luke it was more a desire to withdraw from her own feelings on the state of home that she kept her silence a while longer.

But that's life everywhere.

It was true, though not a necessarily pleasant truth. She had never been able to see things as stark contrasts of good and evil, not in small part because she believed the two to more often be a mesh of gray than a well divided black and white. In all of us, she thought and made a point not to personalize it too much.

"Obi-Wan seems to think there are a number of dangers here. He also mentioned a police force, which he evidently supports," she said, walking once again with her hands clasped in front of her.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 10:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Brow furrowing just slightly, she frowned at him, walk slowing to standing.

"I understand how being taken without plan to a strange place could leave him restless...but without purpose? Surely he has had some point of focus and reason in his time here?" she asked, but even as she thought about it herself, her look made the gradual shift from perplexed to concerned. It did not bother her, having Obi-Wan at her side to assist and protect if necessary. To her it was both sweet and appropriate considering both the point in time he was drawn from and her own somewhat perpetual state of 'being protected', much as she was sometimes opposed to the general idea.

To protect was concrete, something one could, in essence, hold onto, a tangible duty, rather than upholding codes of moral or honor, as admirable as that too might be.

In the sense of making one's self feel useful in spite of circumstance, she understood.

"It must be difficult for him," she said quietly, eyes moving away from Luke and out around them.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Part of her agreed with what Luke said as far as 'danger' went. There was nothing about this place that suggested specific targeting as it had in their world. Yet another part of her felt heavier, a bit burdened with the thought that, in all likelihood, there was a reason to have fear in any place, and not least of all a strange City with curious contents as far as population and environment went. Still, that was supposing she became the victim of circumstance more than the next person, altogether too presumptuous but not unfounded.

"It's enough that you try," she said, not feeling in any place to judge, but complimenting him at least. "The effort, I'm certain he must notice, and the fact that he is still someone you care for, despite gaps in agreement or understanding, speaks more highly than it might if you had to try less." She paused and then shook her head, laughing a little at herself. "That is of course, only my opinion," she disclaimed, wondering at her own talkativeness. Something about being in his presence simply made her feel comfortable though, and maybe that was where the more casual nature came from.

"He must notice," she repeated herself, in reference to Luke's care for Obi-Wan, and his attempts, thus, to better understand him.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-12 10:52 pm (UTC)(link)
"There are worse things to be," she smiled at him brightly now, hand finding his again as she started walking, not at all sure what direction she was heading them in, but supposing Luke would steer them if need be.

"He likes you," she commented a bit lately, leaving off the after thought of: as do I.

Somehow 'speaks highly of' didn't hold the same charm as a basic form of 'like', of one-to-one affection, of any kind. One inferred a sort of pride and properness, the other a more personal feeling of care and attention. Both had their places of course, but in this instance, the latter seemed closer to the mark.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-13 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
"We are. I met him as he is now, though I haven't even asked him exactly from when he was taken," she said, a bit critical of herself in that. She should have asked that, at least, she made a mental note of it, among all the other ones.

"In ways, he grows and maintains a great deal of that duty-bound nature, but his sense of humor improves also." This she shared with him, feeling it not unsafe information. That people grow, that they change, was common knowledge enough. Even more common awareness was that people often retain much of their old ways, through said changes, whatever they might be.

"Don't let me keep you from your work too long," she said suddenly, not looking at him, but attention still fully directed toward him. "You've already given me a generous amount of time." She refrained from the obvious part of 'having dropped in on you so unexpectedly', though her hold on his hand did not lessen.

[identity profile] godsavethequeen.livejournal.com 2008-09-13 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
Padmé inclined her head at him ever so slightly, in politeness, respect, fondness, all of these things.

"You have been very kind," she reiterated. "You are welcome to accompany me. Lengthening our walk even briefly is to my preference, though you do not have to, of course." It was an opportunity for him to just go, given twice, because she still had her own questions about his initial awkwardness and, therefore, their relationship from the last time she had been brought here.

Had they been friends? She wondered. His reaction was not, in the stacks, as she would label one's reaction to a friend returned. Though perhaps that was in large part due to his surprise at being spoken to in general? Somehow, she doubted it. At least civil acquaintances, surely, she thought to herself, still not quite convinced really.

Despite her pointing out of the opportunity to simply return to the library and continue on herself, she did not remove her hand from his, simply waiting.