Log; Ongoing

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When; Early afternoon, Wednesday 6th August
Rating; PG-13 - R because of Eliza's bluntness!
Characters; Tao Ren (tongari_shaman) and Eliza Faust (belovedeath)
Summary; Ren quickly goes to visit Eliza to see how she's doing without her husband, but isn't quite prepared for the older woman's words, about the observations she has made about him and his roommate.
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As he walked up the stairs of Building six, Ren was beginning to question if he should be there at all.

He meant well of course in going to visit Eliza, but really, after the words shared the other day over the network, he worried what would come of the visit. Just what was he supposed to be hiding from himself? So what if he and Horo fought, that was hardly new. There was no significance in it. They were teammates, roommates, friends, but that was it, what else could they be?

Well, at least he would be able settle the dispute and prove there was nothing else between the ainu and himself. But of course he wouldn't forget his proper purpose. That was to make sure Eliza was coping alright since Faust's departure home.

Taking a deep breath, he knoced on the door of the old clinic, waiting for someone to answer.

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[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

The knock caused Eliza to jump. She'd shut the old clinic up tight. Too many memories that she couldn't handle. Still, that was where the knock had come from so she made her way through the now clean clinic to open the door.

Upon seeing Ren she let out a soft sigh, the knife she was holding from cutting the fudge resting by her side now. "Thank god." She didn't know what she would do if someone actually thought the clinic was still in practice.

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Needless to say, the Chinese shaman nearly fell backwards himself on seeing the sharp knife in the woman's hand. Really, that certain curse experience was one he never wanted to relive. It wasn't just due to the Doctor's wife turning psychotic and trying to chop him to bits, but the fact he had acted like a snivelling child and was unable to do anything. He merely cowered in fear until Horo had come to save him.

Shaking his head to disperse the thoughts, Ren just nodded in response and greeting, still a little weary. She hadn't lunged at him, so he was pretty sure he was safe. But he had his families heirloom sword attached to his side, just in case.

"I did say I would drop by, is this a bad time?"

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

She regained her composure quickly and smiled at him. Not a true smile like she would have offered when Faust was here, but one that was hollow. "I just didn't expect you to come through the clinic."

Stepping aside she let him inside. "I was just making fudge, would you like some?"

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Well, it was habit to go this way, but Ren scolded himself inwardly for his carelessness. He was here to really try and help Eliza, and all he was doing was dragging things up so far. Hopefully he wouldn't make anymore mistakes.

"I'm sorry," he said walking through the door, then turning back to Eliza. "I forgot about the other way in, I apologise."

To the offer of fudge, the young male only raised an eyebrow in question, unsure whether to worry or not that the woman before him was spending her time baking. Regardless, he thought the best option for now was to be polite. "Thank you very much, I appreciate the offer."

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Oh no, when he was here ..." She simply trailed off. When he was here it would be expected. Faust was a man with a pure heart. A man she knew she did not deserve to have as her husband, but was thankful him for all the same.

She moved the boy into the kitchen, cutting off a piece of fresh fudge and handing it to him. "How are you and Horohoro doing?" Starting on a less painful subject.

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Ren did his best not to react to the womens obvious sadness, not wanting to make things worse. It would probably best not to mention Faust too much, but still show she had support.

"You do know, Horo and myself, are here if you need anything." he said, hopefully showing sincerity, something he certainly wasn't used to doing. His family were more interested in teaching him combat than social skills.

As they moved into the kitchen, he looked at the piece of fudge in question, before accepting it with a grateful nod. Really, he never ate sweets. he always maintained a healthy diet to keep in shape. Well, a little wouldn't hurt, just so as not to be rude. However, he looked up before taking a bite, answering her.

"Same as usual, nothing tends to change between us." he replied, eating the confection, but a clear look of thoughtfulness on his face. He wasn't being entirely truthful, but he certainly wasn't planning on bringing up those odd feelings he'd been having. He was sure they'd pass eventually.

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Really?" She was munching on a piece of fudge herself, not believing his words for a moment. "So there are no special feelings? It would seem from your words before that you are looking at him as a special person."

There was a secret sort of smile behind that fudge. If only she were clever enough to create something to force the boy to admit the truth to himself.

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Ren was quiet surprised to say the least by the sudden observation made by Eliza. Thankfully he didn't choke on the piece of fudge in his mouth. Instead, he composed himself as best he could, and looked at her, rather perplexed. Special person? What was that supposed to mean? Was this to do with the big thing he was supposedly hiding from himself?

"He is a teammate and companion, that is all. I don't know if that counts towards special or not, but that's all there is to our relationship." he stated simply, ignoring teh slight whisper in the back of his mind telling him otherwise.

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Is that really all?" She gave him a sidelong look. "You know, when I was young I used to think that Johann was only a brilliant doctor who was working hard to cure me." When she talked about Faust a small smile would come to her face and her eyes seemed to drift.

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"Yes, it is." he muttered, though turned his face away slightly, mostly for fear of his face heating up at the insinutation.He still didn't get why he was so embarrassed if there was nothing else between him and ainu, it was just too odd.

Needless to say, he was glad when the subject was redirected to talking about Faust, though he knew how much it was probably saddening Eliza. All he could do was nod solomnly at her, having no words to offer towards her memory.

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"I almost didn't realize how I felt until it was too late. His father had to take care of me because he had to leave. Being parted from him hurt so badly ... if was then that I realized that I loved him."

She turned back to him, her eyes seeming to focus in the present again. "How would you feel if he disappeared one day? If perhaps you were told you would never see him again, or could never see him again?"

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That sort of love seemed something more suited to romance novels than real life to Ren, but then again he had never grown up with any sort of love, so any variation of affection seemed foreign to him. Still, even if what Eliza and Faust experienced was possible, it was completely different for him.

The sudden question however, made Ren's eyes widen, though he tried to hide the shock in his expression. Just how would he...the last time the ainu had vanished home, and even when he left after their fight for a while and lived in the forest, he had almost fallen to pieces, though he didn't want to admit it. If he didn't come back...

"He's...done it before...and I managed." he lied swiftly, ignoring the tight feeling in his chest as best he could.

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Managing and being fine are totally different things. I managed as well. I went through the motions, was a good girl and took my shots. But I felt empty inside without him. How I feel now." She looked away, quietly nibbling on a piece of fudge. "I manage well, but inside I'm falling to pieces without him. My heart is empty without him by my side."

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Thouhg he listened, Ren was trying to fight anything inside him saying Eliza was right. Meanwhile, he also worried about what to do about Eliza's current state of mind.

"You always got along well, it was obvious you were meant to be. That idiot and I are not like that. Sometimes we can't stand each other. I just don't see what you mean by thinking there is anythign special between us." he stated simply, again trying to mask his flushed face.

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

She hid a laugh. "Do you think we always get alone? My darling and I fight horribly. I've even walked out on him several times. Once, he was so angry with me that he refused to leave the clinic. And I throw things at him." There was another hidden laugh at a memory not disclosed.

"Just because your heart belongs to someone doesn't mean you don't fight. In fact, the fighting can show exactly how much you love them."

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It still seemed rather ridiculous though to Ren. After all he and Horo were friends but really, those fights were due to annoyance with each other not because they lov-...

Love? Oh dear...no, definitely not! It didn't matter how read his face was turning, it wasn't because he loved that baka! No, no, NO!!

"It's...that's different for you and Faust! It's not like that with us. That's just...it's just wrong for sooo many reasons!"

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

She shook her head, now almost blatantly humoring him. "Is this because you're both boys?"

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Well, she hit the nail on the head. Ren's face felt like it was on fire, causing him to sound a little snappish.

"T-That's beside the point! There isn't anything between us that way!" he insisted.

The very thought made the Chinese Shaman's head spin. Him and Horo...like that? If it affected him badly the very prospect woult traumatise the ainu!

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

She shook her head, being the liberal woman she was, it didn't matter the gender. "Now Ren, just because someone is of the same gender doesn't mean you can't love them. The mechanics of doing so physically are just different."


[ooc: Just you wait Ren, she'll break out diagrams!]

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"B-but there is nothing between us anyway! I don't think of him like that...and what...what are you talking about physically?" he spluttered, so worked up he didn't comprehend Eliza's words.

{OOC: Ack, his eyes, the images, it burns!! O_O]

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Methinks the boy protests too much." It seemed as if she were talking to someone, but there was only the two of them there. "As for the physical, sex. You do know that there is a type of sex called butt sex, correct?"

ooc: WTF Eliza!!]

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Ren was about to protest more to the woman's statement, but on hearing the rest of her words, he froze. his eyes were wide and almost terrified, as the images floated into his head, and his cheeks burned brightly. Gritting his teeth, he somehow managed to force out a response despite embarrassment.

"I don't...want...to hear anything..."

[OOC: Can you hear it? It's the sound of Ren's brain breaking. XXD]

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Ren, you need to learn about the bees and the bees sometime." He really was just a cute thing. If she and Johann had ever had a son he would be ... well, nothing like the boy in front of her, but it was a funny though. "Oh Ren, just think about it, Horo all sweaty, in the throws of passion because you're inside him." She smiled brightly ... really, she needed to lay off the romances. "Very little could be more romantic~"

[ooc: Wot? I can't hear that, let's make it a little louder now~]

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Seriously, Ren wished there was a wall nearby he could bang his head against to get rid of the images. Damn, the IMAGES! He really didn't need this!

He could barely force out words now, too busy trying to control his bright crimson face, as well as trying to force out the pictures popping up inside his mind he really did not need to see. He would never be able to face his roommate again, would he?

"No...there is....nothing romantic...about it...not between us...anyway..."

[belovedeath.livejournal.com]

"Oh Ren, your face tells everything. If you're afraid of saying something to Horo I'd be more then happy to help~ I really do need to see someone happy." She looked so sad when she said that. Who could deny a dead woman's request?