Log: Incomplete

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When: Friday, October 24th; Late Evening
Rating: PG
Characters: Rain livingmyths And Mat Cauthon bloodygoodluck
Summary: Rain's first date
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Abby had helped her find a dress and suitable, but comfortable, shoes. Not that any of that made her any less nervous. She really had no idea what to expect or how things would go, but she was ready to give it a try.

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Rain was panicked and confused, claustrophic with him for the first time. Her body was stiff, her hands flat against his chest, not pushing him away, just holding a little distance as she tried to calm her breathing, trying to relax, reminding herself she was safe, her brain fighting her body's instinct to flee.

She swallowed hard, making herself stand still. "It's... it's the way it is where I'm from, they don't just do things, but I knew you wouldn't hurt me so I didn't mind - don't mind."

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"Come here. Let's sit down so you can catch your breath."

He was worried. Where this sudden panic was coming from was beyond him. But, he said he'd take care of her and he meant that.

"I don't have sex with someone so they can pay me back. And I never expect it. I would never treat you that badly."

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She sat, wriggling a bit away, but not going so far as to make him think she didn't appreciate his kindness. "I'm sorry," she said. "I don't - I screwed up and I, okay, I'm sorry, I didn't - don't - understand, but it's fine, I'm fine."

"I didn't mean to offend you, I just thought - I told you, I'm stupid."

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"You haven't offended me or screwed up. And you're not stupid." He kept his distance yet stayed close enough to be able to catch her if she bolted.

"I mean it. You don't have to apologize."

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Rain wanted to run, wanted to so badly, but he was being so nice again that she didn't want to just be a coward. She stared down at the shoes she'd bought with Abby the other day, forcing her panic down until suddenly it was gone and all the everything just went out of her.

"You're... very very kind," she said so softly it was probably hard to hear.

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Mat barely managed to hear it and he moved his chair a little closer. "I just care."

He smiled and took her hand in his. "How are you feeling?"

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"Foolish," she admitted, tensing at first when he took her hand, then letting herself relax into his warmth. "Very, very foolish."

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"You're not foolish."

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She shook her head. "No, I ruined things and I embarrassed you and myself."

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He smiled. "I'm not embarrassed. I'm just worried about you. You haven't ruined anything."

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She darted a quick look up at him, uncertainty and a touch of fear and maybe just the smallest bit of hope in her eyes. "No?"

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"I give you my word. You haven't ruined anything." He nodded slightly.

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She listened to his thoughts, the surface ones, had to because it seemed so inconceivable to her, then nodded, ducking her head again. "Okay," she said very quietly. "Thank you."

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"You're welcome." He looked around suddenly. "Can I get you anything to drink?"

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She shook her head then hesitated, changing her mind. "Tea, maybe?"

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"Alright. I'll be right back. Don't leave while I'm gone." Smiling, he kissed the hand he held then went to order her drink coming back minutes later with the tea. "Here."

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She took the cup gratefully, feeling cold right down to her toes and shivering a little as the adrenaline left her body. "You keep kissing my hand."

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He frowned. "Would you like me to stop?"

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"No," she said quickly. "I like it. It makes me feel... funny, warm, inside. Odd, but good."

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He laughed and nodded. "You like it then."

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"I do," she admitted and managed a shy smile for him.

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"That was what I was hoping for. I figured you might be more comfortable with it," he said.

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"More comfortable with that than what?" she asked curiously.

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He studied the table as he ran his fingers though his hair. "Than me kissing your lips."

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Her fingers went to her lips without her even thinking about it, touching them gently. "I, no one's ever... done that before. Is it... nice? In books people usually think it is, but books aren't always right."

There was no real connection between kissing and sex for her, any more than there was a connection between sex and the warm fluttery feeling deep down when he kissed her hand.