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When; Dec 13 (late night)
Rating; PG? PG13?
Characters; Caspian X

treadingdawn, Peter Pevensie

oshutup, soon to include Susan Pevensie

lionesssejant, and Lucy Pevensie

lionesscouchant
Summary; The White Witch's wand moves in mysterious ways.
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Traversing empty hallways at night is nothing new to Caspian, except his purpose tonight has little to do with stargazing. He has been hearing it and trying to understand what it is and why it makes him feel a sinking swell in the pit of his stomach. The muddy feeling is inescapable and makes him feel full even when he is hungry. The feeling isn't pleasant at all. Caspian swallows nothing as his bare feet pad softly up the stairs to the attic. It's colder here, in the dark, and he should be distressed that he doesn't mind it. He breathes in a slight shiver and a floorboard creaks, giving him reason to pause. Did anyone hear it? He is so very near the door. He doesn't wish to stand still here for very long.

Come into my parlor, says the spider to the fly, for I have a little something here.

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Aslan himself has not come. Gold fur hasn't seeped out of the cracks in the floor to form a lion. The reflection of white teeth hasn't stretched to roar in place of the full moon. Where is Aslan? Couldn't he settle this manner once and for all? But Caspian doesn't find himself asking these questions. He doesn't think of the lion's absence at all, only that he is absent and that leaves the order to the King and that King is Caspian X.

A silent moment passes in which the Telmarine holds the High King in his grasp. Saying nothing. Doing nothing. Just holding. And thinking.

He catches that elbow, feeling a finger fracture from the impact when he tries to pull that arm up and keep it behind Peter's back. It's enough to maintain his clutch on the back of Peter's head. Then that hand angles downward again. Another strike to the floor.

This is for my father. He was a greater man than you can ever imagine. The trade his father and his father's father and his father's father's father made pulled your damned kingdom out of the dark age that befell it when you left. You have no right to claim what's better for Narnia.

And another strike to the floor.

This is for inspiring me. Inspiring me to care and giving me that sword and allowing me to prove myself a better man for nothing more than to have him killed anyway and to have everyone else leave. Everyone else. You left me to shine in an empty house.

"What makes a king, Peter, tell me what makes a king," he all but shouts into the blond's ear. And for a moment he looked not unlike his uncle Miraz.

Something is wrong. Something. Everything. Peter knows and yet he cannot stop it, any of it. What war is this, waged with bitterness he once thought himself above even when he knew his ankles could never shake the feeling. The blood in his mouth is no longer alone, as warmth where his head hits the floor tells him, matting through his hair. He can smell it. Disgusting.

"I do."

With both a kick and a push, he shoves Caspian off at last, head reeling--he can't see straight still, but he is seething, eyes with the northern sky in them narrowed the way the ocean narrows into one blue line on a darkening horizon. As moonlight is their only candle, everything falls into shadow, light touching only whites of eyes and glint of wet blood, and what a sight the two of them make. He can only imagine, out of breath, pulling himself to his feet, looking down on the Telmarine, hoarse whispers in his head: long live the king.

Turning, eyes still directed toward Caspian as he does so, he picks up the wand.

Cold.

But it's not like he expected any different.

What makes a king? You ask. You ask because wouldn't know, would you?

He growls from the kick, hitting him heel to the stomach and ball to his rib. Crack. There's something broken there now, it hurts.

Caspian has the time to get to his knees, fractured fingers to the floor, almost to his feet when he catches the flash of moonlit ice in the High King's hands. This is not good. Not good at all. For one, it's not his. For another, he knows what it can do. He has no desire to test it in the hands of someone else, White Witch or not. And still it calls to him with a velvety smooth tongue, in his ear, in his mouth, around the tip of him. It is sick and desecrating like the blood running down his chin, the blood in the gold of Peter's hair. It's what that thing wants. Why are you giving in? He cannot think. Die with honor, die without humility. Unlike that man, he does not bow his head.

"Run me through," Caspian dares Peter. His fingertips pull at the open collar of his shirt, laces loose. It is almost intimate the way he bares just a little more of that tanned skin, stained with blood now. It got the taste of blood from one brother once before, and that taste is addicting. His fingers, the ones purpling at the knuckles, beckon.

Trouble. He's in trouble and he can taste it, hear it, feel it. They're both too far gone but he's still close enough to look back to the line he was supposed to adhere to. Maybe that is what the words that do not belong to him want though, maybe, just to remind him that he can see where he went wrong and cannot bring himself to care. There ought to be guilt for this entire situation and there should be that one word: wait. They both elude him.

Instead there is grief, because he left for the last time and there is nothing he can do about it, and there is disappointment because he had thought, had dared to believe after they won that they were finally done it...that he was home.

Run me through.

He wants to scoff at that because what does Caspian really think he's doing? What bold and uncalled for idiocy is this? Peter wonders, tilting his head as if eying him from a different angle will bring out something more obvious about his words and the baring of flesh, and he adjusts his grip on the line of question in hand.

"You're a child." With those words, the High King once again sends the Telmarine to the floor, wand drawing back as if to do just as he has been dared to.

The old king is dead. Long live the king...long live the king.

The noise didn't wake her. She'd been laying awake for a long time. Only dimly did she realize that she had been staring at the ceiling, and the rumble of footsteps. Susan had slipped out of bed and into her robe and slippers. That restlessness they all had been fighting while they made it through a few games finally got to her. In a sleepwalk like daze, she grabbed her bow and quiver full of arrows.

Ice air on her face made her conscious. The noises--and voices--were louder the closer she approached. Tentative steps brought her to Peter and Caspian, their words were heated in the chill of night. That wand, that tool of the Witch that terrorized all of Narnia for so many many years was in her brother's hand.

A stab of greed struck her brain. It was not his. He shouldn't have something like that. Peter didn't understand. He didn't now what it was like to be a girl, to be wanting to take on the world. To be so scared, to seek that right kind of approval. Everyone loved him.

And so did she.

Why was she thinking like this? The exchange embittered, Susan realizes she hadn't moved at all from her observation spot. Caspian was exposed like a sacrifice.

"No." Her whisper was a hoarse hiss, not as loud as the stringing bow. She wouldn't be able to stop Peter in time. But an arrow on the other hand could. Thoughts moved like mud, but her fingers were fast to act. The red feather marking the back of the arrow was a blurred line that struck Peter's shoulder, nearly knocking the wand held aloft.

Not once did he break his gaze from Peter's, not even when he sent him to the floor, cheek scraping against the wood. His dark eyes locked on, waiting, daring, chanting that real kings shed blood and he, Caspian X, was willing to do that now. He would not be that merciful boy, he would not be that forgiving thing to let others walk on him, feet, hoof, or paw. Lions wait for no one.

And then he hears the soft thud of an arrow, narrow strait barely whistling till the sharp head buries itself in its mark. Susan. Caspian glances to her briefly. Good timing. Yet there's no indication on his face if he feels this is a good thing for them all or just good for him. The expression he wears wavers between that Telmarine Prince on the riverbank and a hungry opportunistic wolf. Without another word he jumps up, eager to wrench the wand away from Peter, and as an after thought he thinks to pull the arrow from his shoulder, not to remove the offending projectile from his flesh but because he knows it will hurt.

At this range the arrow hits hard, sending him stumbling backward, into everything else piled up behind them in this tiny attic, too tiny for the three of them, too tiny for any of them. His eyes dart to Susan in the doorway: what do you think you're doing? And just as quickly they are back to Caspian because it is impossible to avoid him.

Though he manages to hold the wand out of the other king's reach, moving it behind him, he does not escape the removal of the arrow. Granted, it would have had to happen anyway, but the way that the Telmarine rips it out of his shoulder is cause for Peter to gasp and then to yell something incoherent as he brings the wand back toward him, a hitting him none too lightly against the side of his head. No time is wasted as he drags himself backward, as far as he can, back to the wall at last--somewhat for support though he would rather die than admit that-- and the wand held staunchly at his side, a death grip.

"What are you doing?"

Or rather, what are they all doing. Blood on Peter, blood on Caspian only makes the silvery surface of the wand seem more pristine, jewel like. No particular color, it would match with any fine queenly robes. Obviously not the kind of instrument meant to be wielded by a man. It's almost beautiful.

Almost. Not for what it is, the White Witch's wand. She saw the statues. And there were statues all around this City. There was no Aslan to breathe upon them, to charge in with soft words and sharp claws. What if one of them were to--?

No Caspian or Peter, she would most definitely be seen for the strong, beautiful queen that she could be. No need to fight to be noticed. High Queen Susan, how lovely that could be.

How lonely. How could she?

"Stop it! Peter! Caspian!" It's a plea and a command. While they're wrestling like little boys at too rough of play, that calm collected demeanor so admired and refined was at combat with this terrifically different line of thought.

One arrow was not enough to stop Peter. Maybe Caspian. He was like a bear! The only weapons at hand were arrows. So an arrow she would use. Susan leaps at Caspian with her own kind of animal demeanor, holding the little arrowhead like a knife. She wants him to stop. She wants them all to stop. Her grip on the arrow is tight with certainty as she stabs at him once then again holding onto his frame to avoid being thrown.

Just as he is about to aim that arrow like a dagger to a blue eye--he loves those eyes, and he hates them for being so much bigger than him--he hears her and doesn't turn in time. The arrowhead pierces him under the shoulder blade, causing him to drop his own makeshift weapon. It isn't lethal and yet the second time sears him like it's been dipped in hot oil first to spread like Greek fire across his back. He feels teeth in his shoulder, lion's teeth, lioness' teeth. And then it clamps even though the jaws and the paws aren't there. Caspian drops to the floor with a grunt, upright but down for the count. He thinks he sees blood everywhere, soaking his sleeve from a bite that doesn't exist. What is going on? Why is this happening. He looks up to see Peter with that wand. Why are you carrying it? And why are you looking at me like that.

"Susan," he says her name as if her reply will ground him back to some kind of reality because the sight in front of him is too unreal.

Something about the scene unraveling before him grapples with that which keeps his fingers firmly wrapped around the wand, enough to shatter, perhaps. Something in Susan's eyes strikes him deeper than the arrow and what's worse? He has no idea what he sees there, no fathomable reach with which to even touch upon whatever concerns she has, whatever impossibilities weigh her down, whatever world looks to make things so hard for her. But I can help, he thinks weakly, and his grip loosens--even if he doesn't know what to help with, or how.

Things only veer more off course when the Gentle attacks again, arresting Caspian with something desperate and fierce in her hold and movement.

"I..."

His train of thought is no better than it has been so far but maybe he does not like the cold so much, maybe his body remembers, his heart remembers: always winter, never Christmas.

And without Christmas...

Well they all asked for the same thing didn't they?

The wand hits the ground and he kicks it away, letting it roll unceremoniously underneath an old dresser in the far corner. That hand free, he lifts it to where the arrow was pulled, bringing it away wet and warm, black in the blue moonlight, though he knows the stains will be the shade of rust. Even without the wand, he doesn't move from where he stands, braced against the back wall, only staring down at the other two in front of him.

What happened here?

What have we done?

And maybe most importantly: what now?

Telmarine blood is the same dark color and temperature of Peter's, except it is on her fingers. Susan drops the arrow, stepping backward rapidly until her back is to the wall.

She stabbed Caspian. And shot Peter. All for what? All for that ridiculous awful thing?

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Peter, Peter..." Susan is stammering like a little girl, her voice straggled and small, nearly a squeak. "Caspian, I'm sorry. Very sorry."

If only the wall would swallow her. Take her to someplace else. Narnia has no more lessons for her. Is this cruel session by moonlight one that couldn't be learned there?

He isn't thinking of the pain in his shoulder and that she did this to him. He only hears her voice, that same voice that was strong on the battlefield and never wavered even when things were crumbling around them. Queen Susan's face never cracked, not when son nodded goodbye to father and brother, not when her brother couldn't turn away from the gate. Her voice did not shudder when they said goodbye. Susan is not supposed to be small. Caspian wants to tell her it's all right, whatever happened, it's all right, except that it's not. But he doesn't blame her for the blood, for the open flesh. He blames the wand. That wretched thing tearing holes in weaker seams. That wretched thing sitting so lifelessly under a dresser. It doesn't speak anymore, or maybe Caspian is beyond listening. He hears the pulse at his temples the loudest.

And then there's Peter's face, marred by bruises and blood. Did I do that to you? He wipes his mouth with the back of his sleeve, staining it.

"Downstairs," says the Telmarine followed by a swallow. He doesn't even have the sense to complete that suggestion, which is to go downstairs and simply get out of here. They will not do well tending to wounds and comforting small voices up here. It is vital that they don't spend anymore time with that thing so near.

She's sorry? She's sorry? For all that she let an arrow fly in more than one way, Peter is angry with himself for letting this happen, as if he had some power over it, which is irrational, but there, that is the thing of it, isn't it? To perceive the waver in her voice, in her expression makes him feel like a failure, makes him think he is not fit to protect his own family. How was he ever a king of anything? She's sorry? I'm sorry, he thinks but his throat is dry and he can't form words right now. Pushing off of the wall with some effort, Peter nods at Caspian's suggestion, walking over to Susan because sentences fail him at the moment. He is an utter mess, but he hopes she doesn't mind as the hand of his good arm and shoulder--the right--reaches out and takes hers.

"Come on," he says, thumb brushing over her knuckles. "It's," he pauses. "It's not your fault...so...come on." And he's standing in the doorway, tugging gently at her hand so as to guide her to pass through before him. The look he gives Caspian over his shoulder is brief, but pointed. What a mess. All of this. He shakes his head. What apologies he has are not good enough but he will try to give them later anyway. Later. For now, he releases Susan's hand apologetically, only to turn fully to the Telmarine and walk back, kneeling beside him.

It is with a look of I know that he offers his right arm. It's better than nothing.

No, she doesn't mind at all. In fact, she wants to hold him tight. That's not the kind of person that she is. She's Susan the Gentle, just Susan. His hand will do for now, she gives it a squeeze and follows his lead. They'll walk away from this together. Somehow.

There's something more than she can say. I love you to both of them. She does, of course she does, and this remorse for such foreign harshness is just part of the proof. And so is what she's done. What she had to do, helping and hindering at the same time.

That wand does not belong here. That is what is crystal clear.

Her quiver is still over her shoulder, while Peter approaches Caspian she picks up the discarded bow. She'll wait for them so they all can go at once.

He looks to Susan again, feeling a bit ashamed for causing injury to Peter and making it necessary for her to cause injury to him. There's another moment of doubt, doubt that he really belongs here, that he is welcome to the family. Not by the family themselves but by something else. Maybe he should not be here no matter how close they are. Just look at what they've done. Caspian's brow furrows and he thinks for a moment they should leave first. Then he remembers what Luna said and it's erased just as quickly, leaving only the faint outline of self-deprecation when that arm comes into view.

He takes Peter's arm and gets to his feet with assisted effort. His mid-section hurts something terrible, the only part of him that really demands attention even though it's the only injury that doesn't bleed. He says nothing of it, knowing it will heal in time. And then to blue eyes the Telmarine recently tried to gouge he also says nothing, save for a look.

It will be okay.

And to Susan when he walks towards the door, slowly and with Peter to join her. Because she's not alone, not this time. Not yet. He reaches to her hand with those bruised hand, giving it a grip that tries to be firm with three good fingers.

It will be okay.

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