( he sighs, letting go of akito in favour of stepping back for a second. his hand lifts to the back of his head, awkwardly scratching at the hair and the bird sleeping there. kuu doesn't pay him any mind, instead opting for completely ignoring him and his moment of distress. )

Akito. You're a moron. You've got all of this all fucking wrong. None of this is all that simple—not this damned City and not. . . This. I really don't know what to call it.

It's not. . . It's not like I didn't know, because you're about as subtle as a brick wall. It's just that I can't return those feelings to you. It's not about being a boy or a girl or something, it's just how it is, you know? You're Akito, as well as Agito and that other third dude, and you're—

( he kicks at the ground nervously. )

You're one of my best friends. I've always fought alongside you, protected you, taken care of you even if you didn't want it, and I'd lay down my life for you. I've been at your side almost every night since I let you out of your brother's, well father's, cage. I trust you with all that I've got—and goddamnit, I can't give you any more than that. You never had to even ask for my love or whatever. Auugh. It sounds so gross to say that. Damnit.

You'd had that, you fucking idiot. It's just, you know, not like that. But, you've always known that. It's not been a question. So, I don't really get why you're getting down and depressed now. Is it because you're hearing it now? Hearing what you've always known? Because that's stupid. It doesn't change any-damn-thing.

Whatever fucking happens, it's not gonna change. Whatever you do, I will always be right there because we're friends. You're my friend.

That's how it is.