[He is utterly silent the entire time it takes from the marketplace to the apartment. Spock does not even relax when they are inside, he stands to the side, feeling as though he is intruding somewhere he should not be - where he has no place being. Jim and Bones are both emotional beings and-- it's only logical they should express what Spock shouldn't, can't.]
[He does not sit immediately, he circles the armchair quizzically, as though attempting to determine if it too is a hallucination. Doctor's orders, however, are doctor's orders, and eventually he sits down, hands in his lap, his thumb pressing into his index finger, the closest he gets to fidgeting. He is cracking - he is an out of control mess and none of this (Jim is alive) is helping at all. He doubts even Bones can fix this, skilled though he may be, and that doubt persists despite evidence to the opposite conclusion (McCoy is a miracle worker, there is nothing he cannot fix. It is a fact, just like Jim being Captain was always a fact).]
[Then, he waits, as he did for the ship to crash in the atmosphere, strapping himself in with figurative seatbelts, and instinctively he looks to a different chair for Sulu, who has just disobeyed an order to leave. But Sulu is not there, it's only him, and Jim, and Bones, in a quiet apartment in a strange city.]
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[He does not sit immediately, he circles the armchair quizzically, as though attempting to determine if it too is a hallucination. Doctor's orders, however, are doctor's orders, and eventually he sits down, hands in his lap, his thumb pressing into his index finger, the closest he gets to fidgeting. He is cracking - he is an out of control mess and none of this (Jim is alive) is helping at all. He doubts even Bones can fix this, skilled though he may be, and that doubt persists despite evidence to the opposite conclusion (McCoy is a miracle worker, there is nothing he cannot fix. It is a fact, just like Jim being Captain was always a fact).]
[Then, he waits, as he did for the ship to crash in the atmosphere, strapping himself in with figurative seatbelts, and instinctively he looks to a different chair for Sulu, who has just disobeyed an order to leave. But Sulu is not there, it's only him, and Jim, and Bones, in a quiet apartment in a strange city.]