"I actually don't know what I'm supposed to say now."

He folds his hands into his lap and then thinks the better of it, stretching out his fingers and curling them around his knees.

"I didn't tell you because it's ... complicated." He doesn't look at Scott, just talks, "I guess I didn't know how you'd take it? Derek used to be the bad guy and now he's ... not? At least not for me. And it's not even -." A hum. "I don't know what it is sometimes? So I figured I could just keep it quiet and let it grow."