Log; ongoing

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

When; Thursday April 24th, 2am
Rating; PG-13
Characters; Boy Blue playstheblues and The Corinthian bitingnightmare
Summary; Blue wakes up to see a nightmare over him.
Log;

[Blue stirs, feeling someone slip into bed with him. It's late, and he's tired, but he's worried, too.]

Cori?

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[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Quiet for a moment, then reaching up to cup the side of Blue's face, much like his master did.]

You're man enough to choose to go to war, Blue. Don't start trying to please me by what I desire.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[It's too much. Today was too much, between Jack and Dream and Cori. He blinks hard. That's all he can manage.]

I'm...I...

...I don't want to go, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't say anything and pets Blue's hair instead.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

[takes deep breaths]

I want to make you happy. I don't want you to be sad.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Hand to his back, rubbing it slow and firm to help him relax, probably not working but he tries anyway.]

I know. I meant it when I said you don't mean it.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I messed it all up, Cori.

[taking deep breaths]

I messed it all up.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

Shh...

[Trying to calm his breath, not silence him.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I'm selfish, and...

I...

[taking another deep breath]

I don't know how to fix it anymore...

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

Blue.

Do you know what you want?

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Nods and curls closer]

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

Was this it?

[He doesn't think so.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Shakes his head]

I just wanted everything to be okay. I wanted...I wanted everyone to be happy.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[That's his Blue, always willing to please those he likes. He kisses his forehead.]

I'm sorry it isn't working out.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I am too.

I'm sorry I made you sacrifice so much, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

I thought it was about sex, Blue. I thought it'd stay that way. I didn't count on love.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I thought...I could separate the two.

[takes a deep breath]

I didn't know it would be love, Cori. I promise. I wouldn't have suggested it. I wouldn't have, I promise.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

Do you love him?

[Casual question, not accusatory! He pets the back of Blue's neck just to reassure him he's not going to spin in a jealous rage.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Swallows, and waits a long time before he nods]

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[That hurts, but he appreciates the honesty and nods too.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Puts his arms around Cori's neck]

That doesn't make what I feel for you any less.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

It makes us equal Blue.

[Not shouldering his arms off, but he doesn't look as comfortable.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

No, Cori, it doesn't.

I love...I love Fly. I love Pinocchio. I love Rose. I love Snow and Bigby and the cubs. I love Jack.

But it's like comparing...a candle to a wildfire.

[Tightens his grip]

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Quietly.]

... I'm sorry I can't understand.

[Curling till his head is under Blue's chin.]

I'm sorry I don't get it.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[holds him close]

I'm sorry too, Cori.

I want you to love me. Okay? Because there isn't anything that matters more to me than that. I don't want you to be disappointed in me. I don't want you to feel resentful.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

I do love you, and I'm not disappointed in you, I don't resent you, Blue.

[Shaking his head under his chin.]