Log; Ongoing; Closed

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

When; December 19th, Saturday
Rating; Maybe PG-13-ish
Characters; starfleet_pimp and feralside
Summary; Sometimes the best solution to big problems is to leave the area for a bit and go camping.
Log;

Getting out of the City proper was a good idea, best idea someone could have suggested actually. Shalimar was grateful that Kirk actually didn't mind the outdoors, staying around a bunch of people would have really gotten to her right now. At least she'd gotten most of her anger and sadness out last night, that was something, even if her method had left her looking a bit beaten up. But that was one of the nice things about being around Kirk, he wouldn't make a big deal about her being slightly injured, which made it easier to relax a bit.

Not that her mind didn't wander to what had happened yesterday, it did. Even as they walked together looking for a good camping spot her mind was somewhere else, trying to suppress a bunch of different instincts and thoughts that were driving her nuts. So she walked in silence hoping that he'd say something to snap her attention away from the crap going on right now.

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[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"What was the meditation room like?" he asked, pounding the tent stakes into the frozen ground. Shalimar could probably do a better job of it but Kirk would be damned if he would ask for her help now.

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"There was a pond, you could set candles up everywhere. It was peaceful and really beautiful. We had our own garden too," she replied. She considered offering help again but she decided against it, this was more fun anyway.

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"A pond? Could you go fishing?" Kirk liked that kind of pond. Just a regular pond to look at though sounded kind of... boring. "Like... a vegetable garden?"

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"No, there weren't fish. It was a reflecting pool For mediation," Shalimar said laughing. "You don't meditate do you? And yeah vegetable, herb, fruit, it was inside Sanctuary."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"What good is a pond without fish," he murmured, although he figured she could probably hear it. "And no, I don't meditate."

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"It's calming. It's a reflection pool, it helps with centering," she said rolling her eyes. "I've started again. It helps, I shouldn't have stopped to begin with. I have to keep my routines, I shouldn't have changed them."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"I think I would just get bored," he said, shaking his head. He could understand why people meditated, but he knew it definitely wasn't for him.

"What other routines do you have?"

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"Trust me I did to begin with. Adam had a very hard time getting me to stay still long enough to get anywhere. Tai Chi was worse," she said, chuckling.

"Back home, after I woke up I did an hour or so of Tai Chi and then I ran around Sanctuary, at some point in the day I did my workout alone, then at some point there was practice with the dojo and Brennan. I also went to safehouses once a week or so to teach self defense classes."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"I think I'll pass on the meditation," Kirk said, shaking his head. "I'd rather take my bike for a ride to clear my head."

He thought that sounded like a pretty good routine. He tried to imagine Shalimar teaching and found it was oddly easy to.

"You liked teaching the classes, didn't you?" he asked.

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"You don't have opposing sides in your head to deal with. It's how Adam first taught me to deal," Shalimar said, shrugging.

"I liked knowing that I gave them some skills to protect themselves from the GSA. We all took turns teaching at the safehouses, Jesse and Brennan taught a few classes together," she paused and smiled thinking about that. "I think the most fun I had though was teaching Emma. She wanted to learn and she learned fast, it was nice."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"No, just the one side... or the two sides agreeing," he said. He couldn't imagine what it must be like to have that problem, he had seen how Spock struggled with it too.

"Have you thought about doing that here too?" he asked her. "Teaching some classes?"

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"I think the most frustrating part is knowing how easy it'd make everything if I didn't fight it," she said, sighing.

"No, there's no reason here. People here aren't my kind and they don't need to know how to defend their lives. It'd be pointless."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"I admire you for how well you deal with it, Shalimar," he said. Kirk remembered just how difficult it had been to deal with the animal side when he had taken Shalimar's abilities.

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"It's not something to be admired. It's what I have to do and I never would have been able to without Adam," she replied.

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"I should have known better than to compliment her," Kirk thought, resisting the urge to roll his eyes or shake his head.

"I'm glad he was able to help you then," was all he said.

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"He was," she said smiling weakly. It wasn't easy to talk much about Adam. "I miss him too. It's stupid. I shouldn't, he screwed us all over so bad. But Jess and I ...we put all our trust in him. You'd think I'd learn to not trust people."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"He also helped you a lot," he said, shaking his head. "It's hard to let go of that and forget that."

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"I'm also really bad at letting go of people I've given my trust to. I tend to let them back in when I clearly shouldn't," she said, shrugging. "I should stick with giving someone once chance. They screw up too bad. Save me a lot of trouble with everyone."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"I like that you're not so jaded about it," Kirk said with another shrug of his shoulders. "I admire that."

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"I didn't know I wasn't jaded about it," Shalimar said giving him a small grin. "I still build walls, I still protect myself from people, but I don't assume everyone's out to get me all the time. I've met some good people in my life. And some that...I just may never know what they were. Good, bad, or just using me."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"Well, I definitely use you at times," Kirk said, kissing along her neck. "But I hope you know I'm not just using you."

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"As long as you're using me for something we can both enjoy I may allow it," she said, purring. "And I think I might enjoy when you do that. Who knows maybe I use you too."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"Mmm, I know you do," he said, biting down a bit on her neck. "Sometimes you use me to the point where I can't walk anymore. Not that I mind."

[alittlewild.livejournal.com]

"I could be more gentle," she said, laughing. "Don't think I'm taking my clothes off out here."

[starfleet-pimp.livejournal.com]

"You are more gentle, sometimes," he said, holding her against him. "And come on, not even to sleep? We can share a sleeping bag for warmth."