You almost wish you could forget it all {CLOSED}

[crowing]

When; Friday, March 16th. Afternoon.
Rating; PG-13 because they're gross boys Ikki is disgusting.
Characters; Akito/Agito (sixwinged) & (stormking)
Summary; Stupid shopping trips.
Log;
( so it had come to this.

he stood in front of an electronics shop, akito still clinging tightly to his arm not unlike a little kid or a girlfriend. although, both of those comparisons were equally disturbing and he immediately dismissed them before the train of thought could go any further. yeah, gross.

they had been out and about since that morning, looking through shops and making fairly useless purchases. the entirety of their bags hung on ikki's free arm, but you know. . .! it really wasn't so bad. it had been pretty fun, most of it anyway.

he turned towards akito, staring down at him. )

Is this where you wanted to go?

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[crowing]

( he almost feels like he can't breathe, his head a mess and everything is happening too fast. this is horrible, this is . . . probably something that was going to happen at some point anyway, but—

still, still, still. he didn't want this, he didn't want to hear it, because he didn't want it to be real and most of all: he didn't want to hurt akito. especially not like this.

he sucks in a deep breath, making an audible 'wooooo' noise. )

Tch, no. It's not okay.

( reaching out, he grabs onto the shoulder of akito's shirt, fingers tightly holding onto the fabric. )

You're not going anywhere either. Okay? So listen up.

[sixwinged]

[ akito's this close to walking away, to turning his back on ikki and going off somewhere to cool down for a while. this hadn't been on his original day plan, no- it wasn't on his day plan at all. or, week plan, monthly plans, nothing. sometime, he had to say it-- akito knew that. that if ikki disappeared again and never came back, he'd spend the rest of his time here regretting it.

now that it was out, akito's pretty sure he regrets saying it, too. still, as ikki grabs onto his shirt, he just stands still for a moment, bracing himself. wills away the urge to shove away or- make the most pathetic of faces, and instead just turns himself back around as best as he could, to face ikki. ]

Okay. I'm listening.

[crowing]

( he sighs, letting go of akito in favour of stepping back for a second. his hand lifts to the back of his head, awkwardly scratching at the hair and the bird sleeping there. kuu doesn't pay him any mind, instead opting for completely ignoring him and his moment of distress. )

Akito. You're a moron. You've got all of this all fucking wrong. None of this is all that simple—not this damned City and not. . . This. I really don't know what to call it.

It's not. . . It's not like I didn't know, because you're about as subtle as a brick wall. It's just that I can't return those feelings to you. It's not about being a boy or a girl or something, it's just how it is, you know? You're Akito, as well as Agito and that other third dude, and you're—

( he kicks at the ground nervously. )

You're one of my best friends. I've always fought alongside you, protected you, taken care of you even if you didn't want it, and I'd lay down my life for you. I've been at your side almost every night since I let you out of your brother's, well father's, cage. I trust you with all that I've got—and goddamnit, I can't give you any more than that. You never had to even ask for my love or whatever. Auugh. It sounds so gross to say that. Damnit.

You'd had that, you fucking idiot. It's just, you know, not like that. But, you've always known that. It's not been a question. So, I don't really get why you're getting down and depressed now. Is it because you're hearing it now? Hearing what you've always known? Because that's stupid. It doesn't change any-damn-thing.

Whatever fucking happens, it's not gonna change. Whatever you do, I will always be right there because we're friends. You're my friend.

That's how it is.

[sixwinged]

[ there's a moment where akito almost turns away and runs when that hand leaves. he doesn't want to hear it, doesn't want to hear what words ikki might say that would distance them even further.

but there aren't any words like that; rather, they were nice to hear. not as nice as he really wants, no. but all the same, he smiles in response. more than that, there's tears forming in the corners of his eyes. happy tears. akito reaches forward, arms wrapping around ikki's middle to hold him close. ]

Mm', Right! We'll always be friends, no matter what! I'll protect you and take care of you as best as I can, too.

[ he nuzzles against ikki's chest for a moment, before his hands moved to the front of his shirt once more, and gave a soft tug. ]

Ikki. Can you lean down for a second? I need to tell you a secret.

[crowing]

( a sigh of relief escapes him as he watches the change in akito, his stance relaxing and body loosening up. he wasn't sure at first if he had said the right thing, if he had fucked up and wedged a huge divide between them after all. it's not what he wanted, he just wants things to be the same.

thank everything that this was going to be okay. )

Good, now I won't have to beat it into you.

( he lets cling to him, seeing as it was the normal response for akito in these kind of situations. well, not this per say, but situations where he was happy? or something? but the tug to his shirt demands his attention. )

Ehh? What is it? Why the hell are you keeping secrets, you bastard? ( and so he leans down. )

[sixwinged]

[ with the most serious of expressions, akito leans up the rest of the way between ikki and himself, like he was going to whisper into his ear-

-then last second, leaned back a bit, to give him a soft kiss on the lips. ]

In America, people give kisses as a way of greeting one another, Ikki. Did you know that?

[ a quiet giggle, as akito leans away. ]

[crowing]

( the kiss immediately teaches him at least three things. number one being that he should never trust akito because he's still a freaking asshole, number two being that things really were okay, and finally, number three being that no, receiving from akito never got any easier.

he sputters at first, jerking back immediately and wiping off his mouth with the back of his sleeve. )

THAT WASN'T A GREETING!! WE HAVE BEEN OUT ALL DAY! WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU??

[sixwinged]

A belated greeting! I didn't give you a kiss this morning!

[ akito takes a few steps back, giving him some distance. reaching out, he holds out his hand towards ikki, fingers extended out and his palm up. ]

Still want to get some ice cream?

[crowing]

I CAN SMELL YOUR LIES AND DECEIT.

( he lifts his hand, palm flat and fingers pointed upwards as in a clear "STOP" before shaking his head. )

Nope! Only the pure of heart can be graced with the hand of the Great Ikki Minami-sama, and your heart is as foul and as dark as the night!!

. . .

( long pause. )

Okay, yeah, let's go get ice-cream.

[sixwinged]

[ he's just holding his hand out here, and waiting.

quietly, oh so quietly. ]

Okay. Let's go!

[crowing]

Stop holding out your hand, you look stupid!

( moving to walk in step with him and totally taking his hand because whatever!!! it didn't matter!! it was a small thing!

and off they went to the ice cream shop. )