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When; August 19th, afternoon/evening
Rating; PG
Characters; The Doctor (

sciencegeekchic ) and Rose Tyler (

hisplusone )
Summary; The Doctor and Rose meet to try and start to work out some of their differences.
Log;

Hands in his pockets, his pose reminiscent of one he'd taken what seemed a lifetime ago when he and Rose had first departed company on a beach. This was a different situation though, this time they were meeting. To the Doctor, that made all the difference in the world. He had missed Rose before the curse, but afterward it was even worse. At least cursed he hadn't known what he was missing, but now he had been with her and then she had left. It hadn't been their first parting, of course, but it was the first one where they could actually be together.

And the Doctor had resolved to do what he could to fix things between them. He wasn't so arrogant as to assume that at least some of the blame wasn't his. He still felt it was mostly Rose, but he was often rude and more than occasionally neglectful of things so perhaps a good measure of the blame rested on him as well.

But, he was working on changing some areas of his life, so hopefully that counted for something. And he loved Rose, and he knew that she loved him too, and that had to count for even more. So they would meet, and see where that lead. If nothing else, it would be good to see her again.

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"Then why did you push me away at first?" she asked her smile fading as she got serious. That had really hurt her then. "You were wrong, yeah?" She didn't want to complete that statement but she hoped that he would know what she meant, about what he had said to her. That she would be better off with John.

The Doctor worked his jaw as he thought about his response, since a lot would hang on it. He could lie to her of course, and she would probably never know, but that wasn't how he wanted things to be between them.

"I still think I was right in why I pushed you away," he finally said. "But I do know I was wrong to not give you a choice and to not respect your decision and have faith that you know what's best for you."

There was just no way she could win that argument and she knew it. In her eyes it had been wrong of him and cold. But at least he admitted that he had been wrong on that beach in not giving her a choice. She was glad that he was realizing that now.

"Right...Well that's one thing settled." she said looking away from him for a moment.

"But that's hardly everything, is it?" he asked, the fact that she looked away was evident that there was more keeping them apart than just that. He hoped they would be able to talk about it, because he was really at a loss for what it could be. The Doctor knew that he had his fair share of (very minor) flaws, but nothing that he thought would keep Rose from being with him.

Apparently though, she thought different.

"Hardly," she confirmed still not facing him, thinking to what had bothered her. The Rani’s sudden appearance had certainly gotten to her and the fact that they had both been handcuffed to each other hadn’t helped things. It had given her ideas. Ideas that had just pushed her away along with John’s appearance. It had scared her that the Doctor was going to go back on his word somehow and just push her towards his other self.

But that was just the tip of the ice berg. "You...you avoid things." She started off. "I say things and it’s like I never say them sometimes with you. Or when certain things happen." She said thinking back to when he was cursed once and awfully rude to her tricking her out of the TARDIS. "And the next day it's like nothing ever happened at all." Not that that was the main issue that bothered her but it was one of them.

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"Wellll..." The Doctor trailed off, reaching up to scratch his head as he thought that one over. Okay, there was really no denying that. Well, he could maybe ignore it but that was really not the best option right now considering the topic.

"I may avoid some topics," he said, wanting to be perfectly clear. Because he did not avoid situations or people, just topics. "Because some topics that should have never been brought up in the first place, and some topics I refuse to talk about and even more topics I'd just rather not talk about. I suppose that the non rude and respectful thing to do would be to clarify verbally which category certain topics I have previously ignored fall under and then we can go from there."

And there he went on rambling again which drew her gaze back on him. Some topics, she thought. Lots of topics really but she wasn’t about to list them all. She’d probably be here all night and into the next morning if she tried.

"Like the mind sex thing, yeah?" she asked only recently having learned of it from John. Sometimes it was just easier to talk with his clone. She found some things out that she was sure that the Doctor would never ever tell her.

The Doctor frowned a bit at that. It was one of the topics that shouldn't have been brought up. Generally, other people giving your mate orgasms should probably be left alone.

"Alright, let's talk about that one," the Doctor said, crossing his arms a bit. "Let's talk about how you don't trust me with the Rani, but now you want to talk about how someone else gave you an orgasm. Discuss."

Rose found herself looking away from him. It had been an accident really. "I didn't know about that." Clearly there was a lot that the Doctor was keeping from her. And then her eyes settled back on him. "It was an accident anyway the Rani. Let's discuss her." She said quickly shifting topics again.

"Oh no," the Doctor said, grinning just a bit at the situation. "Neither of us should avoid things, Rose. So you brought the topic up so we're going to talk about it. We'll talk about the Rani after this."

Maybe he was being a bit of a jerk about it, but she was being hypocritical and having a double standard. If he couldn't avoid things then she shouldn't either.

"What more needs explaining, Doctor? We were cursed and it just happened. I mean, John felt so awful about it afterwards." She stated looking away from him again. "What else do you want to know?"

The Doctor scratched his head and gave a puzzled look. That really was a good question, nothing more needed explaining. He just didn't want to let her get away with changing the subject.

"Well, nothing more really, I just didn't want you to get away with avoiding the topic," he admitted. "Alright, on to the Rani then!"

"I'm not the sort to avoid topics unlike some people," she pointed out not being able to not really say that, before moving onto his ex. "Fine then, the Rani. Discuss." she said crossing her arms against her chest and staring straight at him.

"Rose, what is there to discuss?" he asked. "I've been honest about her. She used to be my wife and we had a family. I up and left her and took our granddaughter Susan. Didn't come across her again until she was torturing a whole planet and we tried to kill each other a few times."

She was going to make a remark about opposites attracting and that who knew what was really going to happen in the City. She still felt a bit insecure about the Rani being there but she was sure that he felt the same way about a certain other person being in the City.

"Fine then you abandoned them and then you tried to kill her. That's fine, I suppose." The blonde didn't know what else to say to that but just leave it at that. "Explains a lot..."

"Rose, what else do you want me to say?" he asked, able to tell that she was still not very pleased about the situation, as if it was somehow his fault that the Rani was here and he was also to blame for Rose's insecurities.

"I could tell you all our history together if you want. That just might take a while."

"You could," she started off again giving it some thought. Really she was interested in hearing more about his past even if it involved the ex. She had dealt with this situation before somewhat only it had been with Sarah Jane. At least with that situation they were both the same species.

"I think I'd like to hear it sometime." she said and then bit her lip at a thought.

"It's a lot to tell," he admitted to her. It was a lot, a lot to tell but if she wanted to hear it sometime he'd tell her. "But when we have more I'll tell you all you want to hear. Well, so long as it's not something that violates the Rani's privacy, then you'd have to ask her."

He paused for a moment and wondered if he should tell her about what he had been planning, but he didn't think the time was right just yet.

"So anything else?"

"Oh I bet it is," she said with a bit of a smile to her lips. At the mention of his ex, Rose glanced down again, tucking some loose strands of hair behind her ear. The Time Lady still didn’t settle well with her. "Right then."

Inwardly she was debating as to whether to tell him something else or not. It might just make things awkward or possibly worse and she didn’t want that. "Yeah, I..." Without bothering to finish her sentence the blonde closed the remaining gap between them to wrap her arms around his neck, embracing him closely. Her head resting against his shoulder, she closed her eyes for a second. "I’ve really missed you..." she muttered.

"Ohhhh, that's better," he said as he wrapped his arms around her, holding her close to him. This was something he had badly wanted, the feel of her holding on to him again and him holding her back. He hadn't even realized how he was practically addicted to holding her until she was gone.

"I'm going to do my best to treat you better," he promised, speaking low as he held her tight. "You deserve better."

His words were something that she had heard once before when they had really gotten into a row but that had been such a long time ago it seemed. Before they were separated and left the City. Rose pulled away just a bit with her arms still looped around him. She knew that he was right but she also wanted to believe that he’d live up to his word this time. "I know you will," she said really hoping that he wouldn’t fail her.

"Because if not well...you know." She left it at that not really being able to finish the sentence even if it was a joke. She didn’t really know what to think about John other than the fact that he only loved her because the Doctor did and that just wasn’t right by her.

"There is no 'if not'," he reassured her. Because there just wasn't any other option other than being together with her. Right now, while they were able to be with one another without the same consequences it would have in his world he wanted to take full advantage of this.

"Is there anything else you'd like to talk about?" he asked, not wanting to ruin the moment but at the same time not wanting her to keep anything else to herself that might come up again later.

"Another promise then, Doctor?" she asked, really wanting to believe. "We'll just have to see, yeah?" There was still that matter of that other curse and her lack of memory from it.

She bit her lip for a moment thinking of what else to tell him. It was good that he wanted to talk and it wasn't really ruining things as far as she was concerned. "Have you ever seen the movie, My Fair Lady?"

"I guess we will," he said, choosing not to say anything about how accusatory that statement sounded, or how unfair and hurtful that he thought it was. That would probably only lead to more arguments.

"Ohhh, brilliant musical I love it!" he said.

"And so is the film!" She said with a bit of a smile before it faded again.

"Doctor..." she started to say, glancing down at their feet. "Just know that I love you, yeah. And I really want this..." Her voice trailed off. She wanted to talk about the curse but it would just really mess things up even further. "I know you two don't like each other." she said flatly.