Log; ongoing

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

When; Thursday April 24th, 2am
Rating; PG-13
Characters; Boy Blue playstheblues and The Corinthian bitingnightmare
Summary; Blue wakes up to see a nightmare over him.
Log;

[Blue stirs, feeling someone slip into bed with him. It's late, and he's tired, but he's worried, too.]

Cori?

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[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[The slightest of nods.]

Even you. But you don't mean it, I know you don't.

[Knows the smell of Jack's pheromones.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry I hurt you, Cori.

Will you tell me what I did?

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Shaking his head.]

I made my own bed, I need to sleep in it.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

Talk to me, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

You're being greedy, Blue, greedy and selfish. I would know.

I don't have a problem with it, whatever makes you happy.

But I'm tired of being the stupid one, I'm tired of being the one who's not understanding enough. I'm tired of being the bad guy.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Curls up around him]

You're not being stupid, and you're not being the bad guy.

I'm not very good at this. I'm so sorry, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[He just shakes his head.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Tries to turn Cori to look at him]

Are you hurt because he didn't believe you were trying?

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Not wanting to turn just yet but not shrugging Blue off either.]

I'm angry because he didn't believe me, because he talked like he was making some fucking sacrifice. Fuck him, Blue, fuck him. I'm making sacrifices, I'm swallowing my damned pride, I'm trying to give you everything you want before you have to leave. That son of a bitch.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[Blue gets very quiet]

Cori...

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

What.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

...

[He doesn't know what to say.]

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Silent too then.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I think I did you wrong, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't know how to respond to that, because he half agrees but can't pinpoint why.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

Will you turn? Will you look at me?

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[He turns finally, on spoken request, and looks Blue in the eye.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

What do you want me to do, Cori?

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Quiet for a moment, then reaching up to cup the side of Blue's face, much like his master did.]

You're man enough to choose to go to war, Blue. Don't start trying to please me by what I desire.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

[It's too much. Today was too much, between Jack and Dream and Cori. He blinks hard. That's all he can manage.]

I'm...I...

...I don't want to go, Cori.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[He doesn't say anything and pets Blue's hair instead.]

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry.

[takes deep breaths]

I want to make you happy. I don't want you to be sad.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

[Hand to his back, rubbing it slow and firm to help him relax, probably not working but he tries anyway.]

I know. I meant it when I said you don't mean it.

[playstheblues.livejournal.com]

I messed it all up, Cori.

[taking deep breaths]

I messed it all up.

[bitingnightmare.livejournal.com]

Shh...

[Trying to calm his breath, not silence him.]